... give me a piece of cake ...

09 Apr 09 - drowning

2009-04-06T10:20:00.010+08:00

Ex Kingfisher is finally over.
but im still very uptight with everything.

everyday been a usual routine for me, life is getting so boring.
but luckily, my bangkok trip is coming soon.
19 Mar 09 - 22 Mar 09.
time to destress and unwind.
retail therapy!!!

been very very down. temper had turned real bad.
but i aint gonna complain much.
even blogging it out, it wont make me feel better, it wont possibly make any impact.
so what for!

thanks to those who have been asking me what happen.
i hasnt said the full story of it to anyone yet.
but to honest, u wont understand it. it's no point.
i really dislike ple's unhelpful reaction, it actually pisses me off.
and at the end of the day, aft saying it again, im annoyed again.
so dun ask me anything ok. i will say if i wanna say.

i juz wan to be left alone.
been out alone very often recently.
i like the feel when the wind caresses my face.
the moon and stars shinely bright upon me.
for a moment, i felt that this world is beautiful and God is awesome.

But when i back to that place, i feel that this world is so unfair, ugliness of mankind reflected clearly.
God is unjust. why do i have to go thru these over and over again?
was asked by mum, aint im afraid of the situation in BKK?
Answered firmly, "NO".
if im destined to die, i can just die anytime now.
being knocked down while crossing the road.
falling down the stairs.

it is not the death that is scarily. it is about living in this scarily world.
being died, we are free from everything in this world, lost conscious to this world.
but living, we need all the courage to go thru all the obstacles and crisis.
and for me, my ratio of gd times vs bad times = 1:20
we gt to face all the nonsense and struggle to settle them, to continue to struggle for our survival.

it is just like now, im drowning in the water.
water covered 2/3 of my face and im struggling to float.
but yet, i know i will die eventually.
so why continue to struggle? just let me continue drowning to death.
it is better than being rescue and fallen into coma and having to go thru all the pains and yet you have to face death again.

二零零九年三月三日 - 大舅出殡

2009-03-03T22:00:00.006+08:00

今天是大舅的出殡。
大家的心情都变的非常低落喔。

还记得去年十一月二十一日，大家都参加大堂哥的喜酒。
大家都聚在一起嘻嘻哈哈的吃饭。都好开心喔。
但那天也是我们大家亲戚最后拍的全家福。

谁知道短短一个月后，大舅就入院了。
好不容易从加护病房转到普通病房，还以为病情好转了。
谁知道不到一个礼拜，他就走了。
上个星期，我还和老妈子加上三姨一起前去 SGH 探望大舅。
他的样子变得好憔悴。从老妈口中听到大舅去世的事还很不敢相信。
没人会想到是这么快。

这几天，看那些大人为了一些事情吵，觉得好悲哀喔。
但也能看出大家都是关心大舅的丧事。
为了能让他走得更好。

今天当乐队奏起，哀嚎哭啼声也响起。
原本以为我不会哭，因为没和大舅走的很近。
是到近几年才知道老妈还有一个大哥。
但是因为七老姨和大姨哭得好惨，我也因此被影响了。
白发送黑发人，让人感慨万千。

最后的一程，心情低落和不舍也把泪给崔出来。
到了火化场要焚化大舅的棺木时，我们哭得好凄惨。
尤其是二姨，她是跳着哭地。让人更想哭。
小小的外甥也抱住二表哥哭。画面如此的感叹万分。

回到大舅家，大家一起吃饭。
阿公和我们一起坐，我才发觉今天是和阿公第一次同桌吃。
看着大家一起和睦坐下来吃，大概是大舅最希望的吧。

但这一次也教会我要好好珍惜所有的一切。
好好对待家人，让自己以后没有遗憾。
所以我答应了七老姨，在四月底，等我从泰国回来，我会炖鸡汤到她家给她喝。

大舅，一路好走。
惋惜万分。

12 Feb 09 - Workaholic

2009-02-12T14:41:00.004+08:00

im totally drained out and still draining.
Mon's MC din energised me nor helped me at all.
Work keeps piling up and many of which are urgent.
Thinking back, I have been working continuously with no leave since Nov 08.
But to be precise shud count from sept. coz the leave i took in oct was like for my mum's op and I gt no rest either.

Haiz...
desperate for a long vacation.
and im planning to apply for the part-time degree for july's intake @ UNISIM.
so tired - physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally...

been OT-ing to ard 7pm - 8pm, wonder when can i take my time-off.
every week, non-stop.
dreadful work r killing my health.
wonder how alive can i continue.
Aft Mar, i den can official take leave.
sianz lah...

dis wkend, no rest either.
Sat, VDay, still nid to go back for work.
super no life.
and bimbotic candy yeo kip telling me, dunno how many ple asking her out on Vday and she dunno who shud she go wif.
kick her ass lah!!

every nite reach home, hear her grumble abt wanting my laptop for her studies and no one is like goin to afford her education lah.
on another hand, im like squeezing cashless to save up for my trip (if any) and oso for uni's education which my parents r nt going to pay a single cents.
so nw wad, kill me and get the insurance money kkz.

freak!!! im nw super tense up @ work and wif my family.
screw up life.

04 Feb 09 - Mom's Song

2009-02-04T22:51:00.003+08:00

MOM's SONG!!!

This is so damn cool!!!
WATCH THE LYRICS CAREFULLY!!!

04 Feb 09 - Bloody Hell

2009-02-04T22:34:00.003+08:00

WARNING!!!

Bloody Hell!!! think my blog is ur new ad board ah!!!
NO adverts on my tagboard!!!
You WANT TO TAG ADs?
ASK ME Permission!!! OR PAY ME for AD RIGHTS!!!
STUPID IDIOTS!!! NO TOUCH MY TAGBOARD unless U R MY FREN!!!

02 Feb 09 - Quote of the day

2009-02-02T09:53:00.002+08:00

"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."
By Joseph Addison (1672-1719)

27 Jan 09 - Reality

2009-01-27T23:29:00.002+08:00

i've always envy the happy families on the street.
seeing quarrelsome siblings, just reminds me of my relationship with my sis.
looking back at my family just makes me poignant.
all the obnoxious past, all the excruciating scars, everything that made me flutter and weep, recurred back, unforgetable.
everything remains vivid and distinct, no matters how i want to scrap away in my memory, i just cant.

Ashily - Lucky

2009-01-23T00:21:00.002+08:00

Nice song from Boys Over Flowers OST

Lucky - Ashily

Lucky (by Ashily)

When I am exausted, Lucky in my life
You come to me as if in a dream
When I sadly fall asleep, Lucky in my dream
You warmly hold me tight

I always smile like this
Even though the world is difficult
I will never show my tears
Even if you do dont know my feelings
Even if it is from far away, I am grateful
That I can cherish your smile

When I want to cry, Lucky in my love
You look so cool in my imagination
When I feel depressed, Lucky in my world
You always hold me tight, as if in a dream

I always smile like this
Even though the world is difficult
I will never show my tears
Even if you do dont know my feelings
Even if it is from far away, I am grateful
That I can cherish your smile

21 Jan 09 - blog no more?

2009-01-21T15:42:00.001+08:00

been reaching a mth since the last entry.
real busy, since then.
to be honest, i would rather be spending time catching up my shows otherwise SLEEP!!!
understand the big cause of me getting FAT?!

that is not the main part.
I'm really considering to stop blogging.
but it is something im inclinged to.
hmmm... but im so deprive of time.
if only 1 day has 36 hours, it will be so goody.
haiz...

let me think again.
=(

sleepy and tired.
shall go A&E slack soon.

01 Jan 2009 - 2009

2009-01-01T23:23:00.002+08:00

Finally it is 2009.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

Hopefully everything gonna be good =)

Resolutions for 2009

- Slim Down!!! Target: 8 Kgs
- SAVINGS: +$1000
- Upgrade myself. Learn a 3rd Language!
- Happy, Fun and Memorable 21
- Find someone nice and loving

Events looking forward to in 2009

- Redbull CNY Party (1st time organising for Service Ops)
- Confirmation
- Ex Kingfisher (a Mass Casualty Ex)
- My 21st Birthday Celebration
- and many more which cant be listed yet...

31 Dec 2008 - Contemplating about life in 2008

2008-12-31T16:53:00.003+08:00

Looking back life in 2008.
Many many things happened:

- Graduating from Poly
- Mum's 1st Operation
- Started my Career Path
- My Dance Performance
- My 1st trip to Taiwan
- Stepping into Twenty
- Mum's 2nd Operation
- My 1st D&D
- Dad's 1st Operation for Cataract
- and many more that I cant recall yet.

Being truthful, was forced to grow up.
From a routine, whereby school, play then back home to slp.
With work in between.
To now, Work then go home slp.
Some time aft work if I really have the time and energy, I will then go out.
But usually, sometimes no energy will also go out to meet up with frenz, as time are so difficult to coordinate.
By weekend, you will see me half dead and lazy lying low on my bed.
haiz...

Reviewing my Resolution set for this year

Resolution for 2008

Slim Down, NO TUMMY FATS!!! FATS-FREE!!! (grew fatter, weight - historically HIGH!)
Save!! Financial Independence (negative!!!)
~~Find a suitable job~~ or gt into UNI!!! (Achieved!)
Improve on moi characters (hmmm, i think i gt worst)
SECRET!!! (din manage to fulfil)

Generally, resolutions r sadding left undone!!!

Year 2008 is a Major Big Turn in my life.
Everything changed harshly and quickly.
Took a long and hard time to adapt.
Sadly to say, I felt that I've wasted my life ever since aft graduation.
Temp-ing so long but not much harvest, just that work is alil easier for me.
Friends are drifting away.
Losing time even since work.
Social life is like pathetic.
However, gladly to say, found a nice working environment.
Learnt alot of life experiences - Many!!

On Overall, the turnovers in 2008 are great and tremendous.
Hope for a better year in 2009.

24 Dec 2008 - All I Want for X'mas is...

2008-12-24T21:12:00.003+08:00

All I Want for X'mas is this:

Pink Fujifilm Instax Mini 7

Best if use with these cute polaroids

Any sponsors???
LOL!!!
cant find in SG leh...
sianz...

I WANT!!! I WANT!!!

23 Dec 08 - Quote of the Day

2008-12-23T08:59:00.001+08:00

"When written in Chinese, the word 'crisis' is composed of two characters - one represents danger, and the other represents opportunity." - Saul David Alinsky

危机

15 Dec 2008 - CGH D&D Retraoactive

2008-12-15T15:45:00.003+08:00

last nite was CGH's Dinner and Dance.
It was gladly held at Shangri-La Hotel.
Theme for the fabulous nite was Retroactive.
almost everyone was dressed in theme.
could see many Alfro hair around, the hippy gypsies and of coz many semi-retro modern sexy short skirts.
even our CEO was dressed in Micheal Jackson.
was super duper funny when he gave his WHOLE SPEECH in Micheal Jackson's Voice.
LMAO!! (good time to use this adj)
whole ballroom was filled with laughter and everyone was so freaking high.
for once, i suspected that Shangri-La spike our food.
can you imagine even the cold-blooded doctors were oso go high and active, the major ones participated in many games.

but on overall, it so cool.
AMAZED with the entertainment provided.
so sad, din win any lucky draw.
hahaha...
NEXT YR, the 1st prize WILL BE MINE!!!
=)

will post the pics up soon.

11 Dec 2008 - Maximising Your Leave in 2009

2008-12-11T17:44:00.005+08:00

A useful resource for my working friends:

09 Dec 2008 - Taiwan's Hello Kitty-themed maternity hospital

2008-12-09T10:51:00.003+08:00

i think this entry is a good news for Joy!
Joy, read on. Dun get overly-excited.
i can imagine ur look while reading this.

Saw this news on CNA tv mobile.
Hello Kitty-theme maternity Hospital in Taiwan.
Look quite stylo-mylo.

cute rite!!!
ya... Joy, u cant go there for labour.
de airlines wont let u go up the plane.
so 4gt abt it.
and u wont wan ur child to be a citizen of taiwan.

hahaha...
but i cant clear that image of joy pleading the husband to go that hospital.
lol...

05 Dec 2008 - Last Day of fun

2008-12-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

Tmr is my Pre-employment health examination.
Been on diet for a wk, hopefully everything for tmr wont be affected.

Been blogging at work for this wk, cause my boss is on leave for 1 week.
My workload is rather lighter compared to when he is ard.
But today is the last day of my slacking.
Anw, finally everything at work is starting to go well.
YEAH!
wondering is $1,650 too lil for an AA who's covering so many depts.
but somehow things are still alright.
benefits at cgh is good.
and im de only AA in OPs division who was invited for D&D (Dinner & Dance).
WOOHOO! Theme for this yr is Retroactive.
I do haf de accessories but nil for the clothes part.
hopefully this wkend can buy smth for D&D event.
=)

03 Dec 2008 - Pineapples Crave

2008-12-03T10:07:00.000+08:00

"Our body is what we do and what we eat." - My Yoga Instructor

I agree to this statement to the fullest extent.
My widening body shape is because of what I eat and the resistance to exercise.
Because my one determined decision of practicing Yoga, Im once again starting my healthy lifestyle.
Control what Im eating.
Often when Im in office, I tend to crave for some munching.
And so I tend to stock up tibits and chocolates in my drawers and also going to the canteen or 7-11 to buy sweet drinks.
Thus this actually brought me to my current state of Chubby Angie.
But now, every morning Im having 2 serving of fruits for breakfast and having pure fruit juice to replace the sweet drinks.
Selecting a good choice of fruit is important, esp for girls.
Cause at certain part of the month we have to avoid certain fruits.
A diet high in fruits can help prevent many of the symptoms of diseases.
Seeing my family medical history, it is a wise healthy prevention method.
What's more is that it can improves on skin complexion.
Can see the obvious improvement on my skin.
Nemesis Pimple is beginning to retreat from my smoothing skin home ground.

I use to hate the aftermath of consuming pineapple esp the stings in the mouth.
But Im starting to appreciate the tangy taste and easing the stings with pure carrot and celery juice.
Somehow it works.
Due to the want of maintaining the high fruits diet, I research on benefits of fruits.
Discovered the many awesome advantages of pineapples:

1) Helps to lose weight! (MOST IMPT!)
Highly cut down sweet cravings because of its natural sweetness, reducing a lot of sugar-induced calories.
It can make you feel full without giving you an ounce of fat.

2) Fights a lot of diseases, being rich in Vitamin C
Protects our bodies from free radicals that attack our healthy cells.
Water-soluble anti-oxidant that fights against disease-inducing substances within the body.
An excellent fighter against flu and a great enhancer of the immune system.

3) Keeps skin beautiful! (ANOTHER IMPT FACTOR)
Pineapple contains enzymes that make:
- skin elastic
- improve skin hydration
- remove damaged and dead cells
- fight free-radical damage
- reduce age spots and fine lines
Thus, helping us achieve a clear and glowing complexion.

Yeah! Begin indulge into high fruits diet!

27 Nov 2008 - I’ve stop PROCRASTINATING! Yoga Class!~

2008-11-27T17:41:00.001+08:00

YAY! Aft procrastinating for so long, finally managed to go for my yoga class.
Signed up the yoga class at the CC behind my hse.
40 bucks for 8 sessions.
Think it is rather worth it.

Yoga is all abt breathing and relaxing.
Yup… Listen to ur breathing.
Hear ur inhaling and exhaling movements.
Letting ur breathing movement control ur body.
Think of nth and juz cleanse ur soul and mind.
And oso at the same time do stunts to exercise with ur breathing.

During my 1st session, I really relaxed and tot of nth else but juz the yoga moves and hearing my breaths with the accompanying background music.
Felt the stretch of each body muscles.
But still at least help to regain my body flexibility.

But let me complain the –ve effect.
ARGH!~ MUSCLE ACHES!!!
But I think the aches are worth a good slp.

Speaking of PROCRASTINATING!
Read this:

How To Stop Procrastinating... and Enjoy Success...

You ever find that you set a goal, plan to do something but then never really get started?

Instead you find yourself procrastinating, putting things off, or coming up with excuses to avoid taking that first step or get started.

It's called procrastinating.

And everyday we do things that don't really help us succeed, little things that we give attention to which really end up sidetracking you from getting started or taking that first step toward reaching your goal.

When you procrastinate you're really giving into fear, the fear of making a decision or making the wrong choice. The fear of doing something that is outside your comfort zone.

To windup: Stop procrastinating so that you achieve success and begin enjoying your life.

27 Nov 2008 - No time to update yet

2008-11-27T17:28:00.001+08:00

I have a long list of events wanting to update:
1) Cousin's Wedding
2) Yoga Class
3) Mini PSians Outing

still finding time to blog if i can.
need to get the pics from my cousin for the wedding.

but finally managed to post some fotos onto facebook.
tmr, i will be out again with my colleagues.
dis time to the eastern side @ Siplap.
expecting myself to be extremely tired.
but at least im enjoyin wad im doing.

=)

24 Nov 2008 - Quote of the Day

2008-11-24T14:23:00.003+08:00

Quote of the Day

"Half of the world's misery comes from ignorance. The other half comes from intelligence." - Baslo

Moral of the story is kiang jui hou, mai KAY KIANG!!!

20 Nov 2008 - Fatigue and will get more fatigue

2008-11-20T10:05:00.002+08:00

feeling tired.
been slpin late and waking up early.
partly becoz wkend din haf much rest.
in addition of my "auntie's" monthly visit.
sianz...

luckily this wk's workload in office is at active low.
what's coming up for the rest of the week will bring me to a further fatigue state.

1) tmr at work - a bday sabo surprise for yanlong.
2) tmr at work - aft sabo, 2+pm nid to accompany Dad to Clinic S for doc appt
3) tmr nite - Ah Kheng's Wedding dinner @ YIO CHU KANG!!! GRASSROOT CLUB some more!! lagi more sian (expecting alot of FAQs*)
4) sat morning - My 1st Yoga session + Morning exercise (this is gonna to re-occur every sat, 10.30-12pm)
5) sun - PSians Class Outing

everything is so packed.
Hence, whole wkend is used up.
super sianz sia...
juz hope everything will be smooth and enjoyable.
in another words - DUN FURTHER UPSET ME!!!

Yes smth to mention - FAQs.
Do you realised when u meet ur relatives even the young ones, they tend to ask alot of qns?
All these qns r standard qns:
"Working le ah?"
"Work Where?"
"Gt BF le mah?"
it is like super no nutrients like of qns lah!!!

in addition, alot of them will gif comments like:
"wah! becoming prettier le ah!" (like duh!)
"Gotten mature le!"
"Aiyo... you so beautiful, why no bf?" (dis kinda qns dunno to thank them or tell dem straight at the face, "dun lie lah" "U think i noe?!")
faintz lah...

sometimes, juz wanna pull myself away frm these kinda occasion gathering.
but 1 thing great is that my cousins will be there.
at least someone to pei us in these situations and i think most slightly Pam is gonna be featured since she has a bf nw.
whahaha...

14 Nov 2008 - how to start a suicide note

2008-11-14T15:45:00.002+08:00

haha... cute one...
grabbed off from my fren's facebook.
Juz for fun and laughter.
Please DO NOT FOLLOW!!!

how to start a suicide note

the letter head should encompass a note inspiring the world to understand it was the last resort - thus in bold is the natural way to go.

the body of the note should definitely start with an all rounded perfect thank you to all who have supported you in the past (start counting ur days alive, ending that day u write ur note or leave it empty till the day you get your results back), also not to forget, the main reason you're writing this note - your parents.

dont forget to tell them how much u definitely love them.
and u wouldnt turn out to be the person u are today without them - *oops, lol*

and then abruptly end it with,

yours forever.....

name and number.
:D - just in case they need to contact u for emergency purposes only - DUH!*

Primary School Songs

2008-11-13T21:16:00.003+08:00

These are some of the memorable songs I used to sing in Primary School.
Just alittle of history.
Coz im studied in a convent school.
So our morning assembly (since pri sch), we will do morning prayers and followed by a hymn.
and oso in our mass, we will sing all the hymns.
we do sing the more "IN" kind of hymns too.
But these are juz the CLASSICS.

I think SACians who read these, i believe that it will start to bring back some classic footage of our shared common memories.

argh!~
don't we all miss SAC?!?

Morning Has Broken - Cat Stevens

Morning has broken, like the first morning
Blackbird has spoken, like the first bird
Praise for the singing, praise for the morning
Praise for the springing fresh from the world

Sweet the rain's new fall, sunlit from heaven
Like the first dewfall, on the first grass
Praise for the sweetness of the wet garden
Sprung in completeness where his feet pass

Mine is the sunlight, mine is the morning
Born of the one light, eden saw play
Praise with elation, praise every morning
God's recreation of the new day

Que Sara Sara - Doris Day

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother
What will I be?
Will I be pretty?
Will I be rich?
Here's what she said to me:
Que sera, sera.
Whatever will be, will be.
The future's not ours to see.
Que sera, sera.
What will be, will be.

When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart
What lies ahead?
Will we have rainbows
Day after day?
Here's what my sweetheart said:
Que sera, sera.
Whatever will be, will be.
The future's not ours to see.
Que sera, sera.
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own.
They ask their mother,
What will I be?
Will I be handsome?
Will I be rich?
I tell them tenderly:
Que sera, sera.
Whatever will be, will be.
The future's not ours to see.
Que sera, sera.
What will be, will be.
Que sera, sera.

Amazing Grace

Amazing grace,
Oh, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost,
But now I'm found
Was blind,
But now I see

When we've been there
Ten thousand years,
Bright shinning as the sun
We've no less days
To sing God's praise
Then when, when we first begun

Through many dangers
Toils and snares
I have already come
T'was grace that brought me
Safe thus far
And grace will lead me home

Amazing grace,
Oh, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost,
But now I'm found
Was blind,
But now I see

Was blind,
But now I see

*Pass it On - SAC Version

It only takes a spark to get a fire going.
And soon all those around, can warm up in glowing.
That's how it is with God's love,
Once you've experienced it, you spread His love to everyone;
You want (Yes, I want) to pass it on.

What a wondrous time is spring, when all the trees are budding;
The birds begin to sing, the flowers start their blooming.
That's how it is with God's love;
Once you've experienced it, you want to sing
"It's fresh like spring";
You want (Yes, I want) to pass it on.

I wish for you my friend, this happiness that I've found.
You can depend on Him, it matters not where you're bound.
I'll shout it from the mountain top (SAC!!!)
I want the world to know; the Lord of love has come to me,
I want (Yes, I want) to pass it on. (Pass it on, pass it on, pass it, pass it, pass it on!~)

*Yeah! This is the BEST!!!
esp for my batch of graduates in Pri 6 - 2000
Coz this is our graduation song by the camp fire, which triggers our tearing glands.
Moving all our hearts and hugs together - AS A SCHOOL, UNITEDLY*

Cute Camera?!

2008-11-10T17:23:00.005+08:00

Im considering should I buy this camera.
It is rather cute and it is water resistant!
What's more is that it is only cost 15 bucks! (excl postage)
♥ Normal Post: S$3.35 (Max 2kg)
♥ Registered Post: S$5.60

and yea! definitely i will buy the pink one.

Cute rite?!
lol...
so shud i buy?
hmmm...

10 Nov 2008 - blog out?

2008-11-10T11:30:00.002+08:00

many things i've wanting to blog abt.
but it seem that whenever I am at this page, my mind goes blank.

many at times, when im alone, on the bus or stare blank in my cubicle, i talk to myself as if im blogging.
i read thru my mind like how i felt at the moment or comments for some incidents.
but when i really want to blog it out, every inspiration is gone.
if not, it is restricted to what I do not want some ple to noe.
so muznt as well not to blog it out.

something i do lurve abt wordpress is the lock function.
if only blogger has this function too.

09 Nov 2008 - Upgrades

2008-11-09T13:14:00.001+08:00

I have started to plan for my future.
Wasted 8 months of my life ever since graduation.
Hopefully it isnt too late.

Anyway, I will be going for enrichment courses.
First in mind was my long wanting to go Korean classes.
Looked up at the CCs near my house.
I found more Japanese classes compared to Korean classes.
Most of these classes are like located in tampines and marine parade.
Sianz...
But still searching, hopefully can find a class that comprises to my schedule.

Alot of people keep asking me, so im not going for uni?
My answer is 2 years later.
After I saved enough too.
Im planning to go UNISIM - Degree in Business.
But may plan to go Aussie to study instead.
See how in 2 years time.
Many things can change in 2 days, what's more in 2 years.

Starting a saving plan too.
To save up for my further study and also for my future expenditiures like housing and a car!!!
But hopefully I dont overspend.
=)

In addition, I GOTTEN FATTER!!!
becoming a glutton.
and I really cant accept myself to become fat.
My mum said one very heartbreaking thing to me was, "Angie, I can't find your waist!"
o.O!!!
GOSH!!!!
Totally need to diet and exercise!!!
Yes, LTR force myself to jog, but it look like it is going to rain!
=(

[:|| 天秤座终极爱情分析 ||:] 太准啦!

2008-10-29T12:05:00.004+08:00

[: 天秤座终极爱情分析 :]

身为天秤,出生在秋天的天秤,忧郁是与生俱来的-----
尽管人前你见不到一个愁眉苦脸的她,甚至很多人认为天秤是一个大大咧咧的粗线条女人.天秤太善于伪装,或者说,不愿意让不了解的自己的人过多地知道自己的心情.

在爱中,尤其如此.天秤的爱永远像是暗恋:有好感的时候,听到对方的名字、看到对方的身影,都会有一种不一样的感觉,但是自己会很克制不表现出来.即使有机会在一起,在众人当中,天秤跟谁都谈笑自如、亲切有加,惟独对自己在意的那个人,远远的,只用余光感受他的存在.他的一个表情,一句话,都在天秤心里引起阵阵涟漪.这样做的结果,往往是求近而得远.但是没有办法,天秤就是这样无法克服自己的本能.面对喜欢的人,会莫名地自卑/羞怯.其实天秤是很善于和异性相处的,从小到大,也不缺乏哥们似的朋友.但是,对自己喜欢的那个人,她做不到那样洒脱.哪怕只是主动地打个招呼,也会紧张对方会不会看透自己的心思.天秤期待爱,但又恐惧爱的力量会将自己拖入万劫不复的深渊.

即使两个人最终相爱了,天秤依然表现得冷静有余,热情不足.她会在任何时刻想到你,天气的变化，随便遇到的什么人或者事,念头一闪就转到你的身上去.她会在夜晚想着你的好或者不好,高兴或者难过地默默流泪.她会设身处地为你想很多很多,甚至想得太周到连你自己都想不到的周到.她会为你的某个失误找各种各样的借口,在质问你之前已经原谅了你,但是还是要你一个解释,一个简单的合理或者不合理的解释就轻易能让她释怀.她会为要不要给你打电话或者发短信犹豫很久,生怕打扰到你或者令你不方便不耐烦.她会想象出无数个美好的相处场景,沉浸其中不能自拔.

但这一切,她不会让你知道.天秤并不缺少爱的能量,但缺少爱的勇气.或者说,如果有什么是天秤不能为你做的事情的话,那就是放弃自尊.自尊是天秤的最后一块堡垒,生死共存.天秤看上去开朗,其实细腻而心重.她一生都在期待真正懂她的感情的那个人.你来了,她有多么激动;可是,她又不敢相信那个人真的就是你.她等得太久太苦,以至于都绝望了.所以当那个人出现的时候,她反而慌乱失措了.她不知道如何在一个热烈的爱人与优雅的女人之间做出选择,你更喜欢哪一个呢?她不断地问自己.一方面,她也在不断地问自己:我这样做会不会失去自我?他会喜欢这样的我吗?如果她不喜欢,我怎么样做回自己?

这样复杂而强烈的情绪,你不会真正体味得到.天秤掩饰得那么好,只会对你微笑,即使流泪,也是静静的,不会哭喊发作.如果有伤害,她会一个人反复回味,直到在痛的重复体验中失去痛的敏感,再原谅你,继续.她不大会谴责,不大会推卸责任,她永远把错先揽在自己一边.甚至归结为自己个性的缺陷.天秤在爱里的自卑使她不得不这样在黑暗里爱着.她怕你知道她的"不好",她自以为是的不好.也怕你为她而难过/伤心,那样还不如她自己独自忍受.也许伤到最后,天秤发现自己无力再承受了,她会安静地走开.绝望与崩溃,也不会让你看到,哪怕她痛苦到极点,你看到的,仍然是一个秤静的天秤;顶多,有些冷漠.那冷漠也未必是针对你,很可能，是针对爱的.

天秤知道,最输不起的,就是感情.交付起来,是一点点,一滴滴,直至沦陷;破碎时,却是大厦倾颓,天昏地暗.她了解人性中的任何世俗与卑微的心理,她怕自己柔弱的爱情成为这些丑恶的猎物.-----
这就是天秤,即使受伤,她依然会把过错归于人性的弱点,而不会,真正地去恨.你看到她淡淡地来,淡淡地去了,却不知道,她的心无声地碎裂成了什么样子.

若不是天秤们爱上了爱情，或许，也就不用独自承受那么多。他们的爱情就像在上演的一部电影，他们就在这出戏里，眼看着它从开始到结束。落幕并不可怕，天秤们在乎的是他们成就了一部电影。
　　
天秤们不喜欢落入俗套中的爱情。与天秤爱过的人，也许回头来看，都不知道该怎样去评价那个天秤。爱着的时候是淡淡的，离开的时候也是淡淡的，甚至，连分手的理由都不屑追问。假如一个天秤在你面前掉了一次泪，你决不会想到她在背后曾为你哭过无数回。　　
天秤的爱情有些自闭。他们喜欢纠缠在回忆里，幻想里，那些破碎不堪的画面对他们来说就意味着完整。其实，做天秤的爱人真是轻松得很，你不用刻意去安排什么浪漫的场合，你什么都不用做。因为，天秤们都有一颗浪漫的心。只要心里有爱，再平凡再普通的事也被他们美化了。　　

天秤们的内心真的是很温柔。这种温柔绝不是娇柔做作的那种，而是有一颗明事理的心。天秤们懂得尊重别人，这并不是人云亦云，事实上，天秤没有那么多的好奇心去在乎每个人的想法，对自己不在乎的人，又何必较真呢？这是天秤做人的道。而对于自己爱的人，他们的一言一行天秤会拿来奉做“圣经”。　　

天秤喜欢钻牛角尖，没错。一旦他们爱上一个人，就很难再去相信自己的直觉。他们会抓住对方的一句话，一个举动，然后暗地里穷分析，直到得出自己最确信的答案。当然，他们得出的结论也是相对客观的，天秤们不会傻到蒙蔽自己。但，殊不知这天底下最难测的就是人心，而喜欢猜心的天秤们往往是被自己弄得筋疲力尽的。　　

爱情是一个人的事。天秤们肯定对这句话大有感触。爱上了，倒反而寂寞了，因为想把自己交给一个人去了解，可这个人懂吗？值得吗？面对着眼前这个若即若离，神秘又淡然的天秤，谁又会想到他们的内心正起着暗涌。而相反的，爱上天秤的人会在某一天突然却步了，想要放弃了。原因只有两点：一是感到缺乏安全感。摸不透天秤的想法，热度也不够，温温的。要知道这世上的俗人千千万，也许他们在认识你的第一天就想着跟你上床，而天秤期待的爱情是首先要建立在精神上的，美的，有幻想空间的。于是，分道扬镳。二是感到天秤的爱是种负担，因为天秤的爱里容不下一粒沙。其实，天秤最喜欢的是和自己过不去，但，人永远无法超越的却是自己。天秤的这个结老也打不开。　　

天秤们多有自虐倾向。他们天生就懂得“悲剧艺术”的魅力，他们的爱情里要是没有一点悲剧色彩，就好象是不完美的。矛盾吧？！虽然，天秤们追求的是幸福美满，但他们又喜欢作茧自缚。失恋的天秤，往往不会寻找什么好的途径来忘却，相反，他们会找出所有的情歌来听，让自己沉浸在其中无法自拔，直到自己都撑不下去为止。

也许，只有那种历经坎坷，途径九九八十一难最后才修得正果的爱情才是他们内心最最向往的。所以，要是没有一点“分量”的感情，天秤们有时就会“分心”。

27 Oct 2008 - Wish you happiness

2008-10-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

noted many things that happened.

got to know how my frenz, one by one found their happiness.
but i wish that they will notify me too.
not letting me finding out from other frenz and from facebook or friendster.

maybe, i have drifted and neglected many frenz.
but what i wanna say is i wish you all happiness.
true frenz are always happy for each other.

Marlene, I wish you happiness.
Msg spreads realli fast.
one uploaded pic frm ur friendster frm de previous nite, the nxt morning almost all of us noe le.
lol...
coz we haf too many frenz who keep an eye for each other.
Nxt time intro ur guy to us kkz.
no matter wad, we will stand by u, ALWAYS!

Joy, I know u r perfectly alright and happy.
but dun let Kenchi bully u kkz.
KENCHI!!! I WARN U, U BETTER DUN BULLY HER.
Although i noe u r nice to her, but dun take advantages of her kkz.
she maynt matter or notice, but u dun let her always wait for u or go bishan find u.
guys do the waiting, and send the gurls home.
nt de other way round.
and most IMPTLY, she is NT FOR SALE!!!
so u cant sell her.
JOY, dun worry kkz.
anything, we will protect u.

liting, u haf ur ztlg.
ming very nice to u.
all of us can see.
frm ur fotos, we can see the smiling faces of u and him.
i oso observed how our ting wan to become for ming.
cook and bake for him.
haha... can see nxt time our ting will become a good housewife.
but dun get emo too easily kkz...
although im nt a gd listener, but promise me u will approach me too when u r sad or anything.
we will stay close tgh.
i promise, i will be ur listening ears and will standby u when u needed someone, other than ming.
stay cheerful kkz.

yiNgz, u r very happy and xing fu.
can see frm ur smile whenever u tok abt kenneth.
he may nt be very romantic, but can see he is very tie xin.
when u r sick, he will buy u meals to ur hse.
aft work, he will fetch u.
can see he lurves u lotsa.
so we haf no worries at all.

dou, erm...
i dunno how shud i phrase this.
but u noe my stand frm de beginning.
nt only coz he is a PRC, but i can foresee the complications nw and in the future.
i understand ur dilemmia.
but since u had chosen him, u muz oso expect the issues that will surface.
like wad u said, before ur relationship wif him deepens, u wan to put it to an end.
but u cant, coz de relationship has deepen.
y nt, juz gif it a try before ending it.
although i noe that this relationship may not be successful, somehow, i think it is a process, an experience u muz go thru so that u can flourish.
i juz hope that u wont regret for any decision.

zaza, ehhhhhh, i BWG.
coz i dunno de guys.
and u seems to change bfs fast too.
hahaha...
i juz hope the current one really luv u and also treat u well.
and dun everytime CMI for our outings.
no more PS-ing us liao kkz...
update mi too kkz...

tingting, u muz be cheerful kkz.
no matter wad happen, u will still haf me.

looking back at my gurls.
i wonders lots.
i juz hope for my own happiness.
coz currently, nth really delights me at all.

family - needless to say.
work - im feeling stress and getting bored abt it. but aft dis wk, i will become a perm staff for 2 yrs bah. aft which, study?? i hope so.
myself - i falling into depression. im angry and upset wif myself. for lot of stuffs and some uncertainties too. need to figure out on my own.

somethings, simply cant tell any of my gurls at all.
coz myself, i haf a barrier cast up.
an inner one which is hard to demolish.

guess wad i need is peace and time.
to think things over, find my own path in life.
hopefully, over time, i will be recover and be as cheerful as ever.

i just wish everyone to be happy and healthy.
any sadness, i will share ur loads with you.

My 20th Birthday Celebration

2008-10-26T22:31:00.004+08:00

My 20th Birthday!

Celebrated with my dear gurls.
din really had a big boisterous celebration like in the past.
but still i enjoyed it.

my gurls made my day.
but moi heels ruined my feet.

had a mini celebration at KBox Cineleisure.
some pics:

My Fav Pics:

to be honest, this pic is my fav.
it is nt realli de person i took wif lah.
so dun be too happy.
but it is becoz of de lighting.
like the reflection too.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Dinner Treat by moi 2 MTs from CGH @ T3's Sakae Tepan

Nice dinner treat by my 2 management trainees at moi workplace.
took a ride down to changi airport to makan.
chose Sakae Tepan for dinner.
nt bad.
in additional, there was discount for DBS credit card users.

Thanks guys!

Thanks for all the wishes and the presents I received.
Special thanks to my gurls who made my day.
Taking the leave and pushing away appt just to pei me.

26 Oct 2008 - Strike 4D again

2008-10-26T22:07:00.002+08:00

hahahaha!!!

i strike 4D again!

yay!!!!

but win only $30.
win starter, IBet
spent $12 on 4D.
so only gain $18.
but better than none.
at least i gain a GV movie voucher too.
won in a survey participation.

hahaha...
rmb last yr, same sunday.
oso strike 4D.
but more money lah.

lol...

你会懂吗?

2008-10-26T00:14:00.005+08:00

我现在的心情好比这首歌的歌词

沿海公路的出口

用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
荒茫公路无人的漂泊寂寞海啸把我卷走
用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头微笑参透覆水难收

倘若说放一次手就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆却学不会放手怎麼走

这首歌一直在我心中播放着。

你懂吗？

Why are the letters on the keyboard nt in alphabetical order?

2008-10-24T13:17:00.006+08:00

Drop a simple yet complicated-to-answer question here:

Why are the letters on the keyboard nt in alphabetical order?

stunned?!
this is a question asked by a 3 yrs old kid who is learning to use a computer.

her question shocked all of us.
couldn't answer the question.
me and her mummy looked ard and stared at each other.
*speechless for a moment*

with no answer from anyone, i jokingly said, "coz the person who invented the keyboard din noe his "ABCs" as well as our lil gurl"
den she replied, "Mummy! REALLY?! Why is the person so stupid?"
everyone laughed and her mummy told her, "Nono, girl... no one is stupid. Gurl, it was only a joke. Mummy didn't tot of dat too. Why don't you ask the teacher when you go to playgroup? Maybe ur teacher noe the answer."
haha... as if the teacher in the playgroup knows.
but at least we din have to answer her question.

We did somehow returned back to the topic.
lil gurl: "Mummy, the keyboard very hard to press press. The ABCDEFG, all run ard. Mummy, tell me why why?"
Mummy: "Mummy dunno. Mummy not teacher. U ask jie jie."
*Bomb thrown to us o.O*
*Cold Stares*
Me: "do you see any words that the letters are spelled exactly like "ABCs"?"
"No rite?"
"And so for convenience sake, dey somehow random the words in a typical way for us to type easier."
"Erm... when u grow older, you will understand."
lil gurl: "Mummy when will i grow older?"
Mummy: "Erm, very long. Take at least another 18 years."
*Faints*

but at least she got quieter.
I think we shud pull kids away frm tv and computer.
=.=
Are the kids getting smarter or are we getting stupid?

Anw, when online to look for an answer, just in case she asked again.

A sample answer found online:

The QWERTY keyboard layout was designed so that successive keystrokes would alternate sides of the keyboard so as to avoid jams in manual typewriters. Is frequently said that the design was also created to make people type slower.
First designs of manual typewriters using keyboards with letters on alphabetical order could not keep up with the speed of fast typers and the QWERTY keyboard layout was designed to reduce jamming. See:

http://home.earthlink.net/~dcrehr/whyqwert.html

Later a layout called Dvorak was introduced to allow faster typing and reduce fatigue but has never got widespread use. See:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dvorak_Simplified_Keyboard

The QWERTY keyboard layout survived the era of electrical typewriters and the digital age because it was the first standard design. Being first counts.

Somehow in the older days, manual typewriters jams.
Christopher Sholes designed the QWERTY keyboard in such a way, so as to avoid jams in manual typewriters.

(ohhh! so nice of him.
why didnt u tot of passing dwn a manual on y u designed the keyboard in such a way.
Goodness!)

Geez...

23 October 2008 - NS Boys

2008-10-23T21:23:00.002+08:00

i hereby send my best regards to my 2 fellow pals who will be goin to Singapore's furthest chalet for their tough service to Singapore.

Mr Stephen ~~the~~ our Frog!
hmmm, like wad i msn u.
dun really turn urself in tian ji zhou kkz...
and ya, usual msg when u r out.
nv in my life had i seen a botak frog.
for our biggest enjoyment, pls call us when u r out.
i'll proudly organise an honourable outing for you (with our cameras).
hahaha...
and rmb to bring along the promised souvenir frm jp.
take care kkz!
and oso take care of ur LDR (Tekong vs Japan).
1 word - HARDSHIP!!!
BUT JIAYOU!!!!
with all the encouragement frm mi!!!
lol!~

Mr Busyman - Cha Cha Hu
eh, Mr Busyman.
all the best for ur NS tmr.
u wan to build up ur body rite?
nw it is a good opportunity to train urself.
dun ai mei too much kkz, ltr ple think u "ah kua".
lol...
dun emo in camp and try to social with everyone.
hahaha...
Take care and Jiayou too!

Best regards to Both,
GiE!~ =)

21 Oct 2008 - Quote of the day

2008-10-21T10:32:00.000+08:00

"Our lives improve only when we take chances -- and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves." - Walter Anderson (b. 1944), American writer

19 Oct 08 - b'day eve

2008-10-19T16:01:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO
SITI!!!

---------------------------------------------------------------------

Recently hasnt been in a gd mood.
Taking a chance tonite, while countdown to my "Birthday", I shall take a chance to think over somethings peacefully.
in another word, it means i will be emo-ing again.

Hopefully, i will be get over them soon.

tmr i will enjoy myself.
im nt goin to waste de splurge made ytd.
Total of $230 worth of damage made to my wallet.
i will turn beautiful and enjoy!

Birthday Presents

2008-10-18T01:18:00.004+08:00

TOP 5 WANTS for this b'day!!!

1. Pink Sony Cybershot T77

2. It is all abt STORAGE!
320GB Ext Hard Disk & 8GB PSP Memory Card & 2GB M2 Card

Pink Hard Disk! *smooches*

3. Braces =D

4. A new set of B'day Suit

5. Secret =)

不要对我再说爱 - 林凡

2008-10-18T00:35:00.003+08:00

不要对我再说爱 - 林凡
篮球火音乐圣典

太多愛不明不白
我還在分手的那一天原地徘徊
太多事不明不白
不明白怎麼笑著走出來
不要對我再說愛,你回來
可是過去再也回不來
不要對我再說愛,我還在鞦韆上搖擺
太多人不明不白
我不想重新開始後還想著原來
太多人不必等待
我不能替你確定的未來
不要對我再說愛,你回來
可是過去回不來,不要對我再說愛
我還在鞦韆上來回搖擺
oh......~ya~ya
不要對我再說愛
我坦白,一直忘不了原來
不要對我再說愛
我害怕
我們再受到傷害
ya~不要對我再說愛
你回來
可是過去回不來
不要對我再說愛
就讓我
一個人靜靜搖擺
一段愛從不明白
到明白
我的眼淚才慢慢流出來

07 Oct 2008 - Brand Chicken Essence

2008-10-07T22:24:00.003+08:00

i really nid something to nourish my body.
wanted to take chicken essence.
however, i really dun like the taste and the smell.

so anyone can suggest what method to remove those taste and smell.
geez... gross!!!

took 1 hr to finish drinking it...
bleagh!~ er xin...
XP

07 Oct 2008 - Quote of the Day

2008-10-07T09:56:00.004+08:00

Quote of the Day

"Take control of your destiny.
Believe in yourself.
Ignore those who try to discourage you.
Avoid negative sources, people, places, things and habits.
Don't give up and don't give in."
- Wanda Carter

06 Oct 2008 - weird

2008-10-06T23:20:00.001+08:00

when someone (nt close to u) tells a story abt u to some stangers and she suddenly msg-ed u.
Her msgs sounded as if it is very urgent and want ur immediate reply when u r busy at work.
Finally i replied, she confessed abt smth nt very big which seems ridiculous to me.
But she apologise and wants ur forgiveness.
what do u think?

.

.

.

.

.

WEIRD

din even have to bother to tell me abt it, right.
would u tell someone that u backstab abt him/her, then apologise and want her forgiveness?
do u even want her to know abt it?
NO RIGHT? Precisely!

= = = = = = = [Shortly aft work and dinner with friend] = = = = = = =

when u reached home, another someone tells u that someone who msg-ed u LIED.
there was more abt it.
and whatever she said to the stangers were lies and it affected u as well.
nw what do you think?

.

.

.

.

.

nw what the shit got to do with me?
why drag me in ur lies?

and her lies were so so SO SO ridiculous, that's all i can comment.
dun wan to say much, coz u kids de "masak masak" dun put me in kkz!
i juz hope that whoever heard her abt me, juz come and get to me personally before you judge me.

if you heard abt me with regards to my dance concert, go ask my dancers why i was angry with her ONLY.
and go ask ple who gone thru my leadership in dance and oso her's.
Ask them to compare us, b4 u set a conclusion.
im nt claimin that im good, i noe i may nt be.
but at least i gave my 100% in my CCA, as a pioneer, i could say i seen the growth.
if nt ask the juniors who've treat them better, who've been teaching the foundations and etc.
but i admit that the someone's mouth is definitely much more powerful than mine.

other than that, with regards to my character and my personality, come and understand me first.
dun believe ask my friendSSSSSSSSS.
nw i dun have much issues with my friendSSSSSSSSSS.
look it is FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSS and nt singular tense, past tense nor future tense.
it is present tense with plurals.

NW SCAM OFF!!!

gimme back my 清白!

02 Oct 2008 - FATIGUE

2008-10-02T19:38:00.005+08:00

1 word to describe my current state - LETHARGY

aft constant running in and out frm 2 different hospitals, cooking, housekeeping and tahan all the nonsense, i gotten super tired.
for several weeks been waking up early including weekends and public holiday.

nw all i wish for is to slp in quietly and peacefully for a day - 24 hours of slp.
super tired...

at least today mum is back frm hospital, cut dwn alot of traveling liao.
so can come home and slp liao.

past few days frm sun onwards, practically juz knock out when i laid on my comfy bed.
some time online but human nt online, so whoeva been msn-in me past few days, paiseh lah, i was slping as much as i could.
noticed some msn window, but din bother to see and replied, juz moved de cursor to the shut down button and off the switch and returned back to slp.
every nite routine was the same.

sianz...
fallin sick le.
ytd, was shocked by my own look when i woke up.
face super pale, lips turned super dry and white.
head was super pain.
took me quite a while to gt out of my bed.
applied lip gloss b4 i went out.
on the train was super dizzy.
called joy she nv pick up.
=.=
called tingting but she seems quite busy.
aft dat SUPER LOTS of foreign workers got onto the train.
wah lao de smell, GOSH!!!
faintz...
sick liao, de BO made me even more sick.

managed to tahan to KKH.
pretended as if i was super active.
but honestly, i can feel my body was super weak.
slpt a very short while on the chair beside my mum's chair.
aft which body seemed more settled.
make up really makes wonder.
on lappie to watch my shows which i din managed to watch for the past few days.
oso web cam wif tingting...
=)
so sweet of her. hope she jiayou for her upcomin exams.
dat joy i really BWG, zhong se qing you.
=.=
but at least she saved me from de bangadeshy stalker...
=)

one fruitful thing abt mum's hospitalisation is dat i managed to contact wif my cousin.
we nv tok much to each other, but dis time we tok alot.
we discuss many stuff like when is his wedding and even toking bad abt why KKH would haf macdonald.
also teased him abt his skin colour is so dark dat i tot he was a malay when he stepped in.
lol... but realised he was more approachable and funny than b4.
=)

anw, UPSET!!!
super upset abt smth i read.
all i cld say, try to tahan for the sake of "mo ren".
trying to kip as quiet as i can.
but better dun further provoke me liao.
argh!~

29 Sept 2008 - My Handwriting Analysis Report

2008-09-29T22:01:00.003+08:00

My Handwriting Analysis Report

Most people with a severe leftward slant have some type of childhood trauma they have yet to work through. Since we didn't actually "see the writing", we can't tell if she actually has a hard left emotional slant, but if so... she has issues with trust and it is likely rooted in childhood.

Angie has withdrawn into herself. She is reserved and shows her feelings only at times of great anger, extreme passion, or tremendous stress. Angie is an introvert. She makes decisions based on logic, therefore she is rarely impulsive. She doesn't find any need for expressing her emotions. In fact, she probably sees this emotional expression as an unnecessary waste of time. She has a hard time relating to an extreme extrovert, although it is common for her to be attracted to one. Many people do not understand Angie; it is difficult for them to really know how Angie feels. Angie enjoys being alone, and probably prefers working alone. Working with her hands is a pleasure.

Angie's basic nature is to look out for herself first. Although she can and does feel emotions, perhaps as deeply as anyone, she just almost always harbors them inside.

The first time someone angers Angie, she probably will not say anything to that person at that time. However, she will mentally keep track of everything this person does wrong to her until she cannot hold her emotions inside any longer. Then; Boom! Angie will cloud up and rain all over them. And she will never regret telling someone off, because she knew what she was saying the entire time. She won't impulsively tell someone off.

Emotional stories will not sway Angie. She thinks totally with judgment, first considering every situation by the effect it will have on her.

Angie needs space and time alone. She will be much more efficient if given a job alone, rather than being surrounded by people.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Angie doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Angie will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Angie believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Angie will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Angie has a desire for attention. People around Angie will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character.

In reference to Angie's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Angie slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Angie can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Angie's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Angie that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Angie also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Angie is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Angie's self-concept is artificially low. Angie will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Angie to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Angie is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Angie is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Angie has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Angie has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Angie fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Angie has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Angie is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Angie is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.

29 Sept 2008 - Worried

2008-09-29T09:32:00.002+08:00

all i could say nw is that im extremely worried.
at work, but cant concentrate at anything.
and worse come to worst, ltr will be having an one to one meeting with our Ops director on the upcoming budgeting.
i really cant calm myself down at all.

morning, barely 6am was woke up by my sis.
tried to get back to slp, but somehow cant.
finally pull myself up at ard 6.45am to cook what my mum wants me to bring after work.
luckily dun require lots of time to prepare, but still late for work.
Cause gt down late and damn bus was late too.
=.=

nw freaking lots of butterflies r playing merry-go-round in me.
heart fluttering, stomach quivering...
GOSH...

cant wait for 1pm to reach soon.

23 Sept 2008 - Random

2008-09-23T13:52:00.005+08:00

Random at work

Boss is like a diaper

Who do you prefer?

Treat your Job as a Test

You sure you want to do a Good Job?

Incentive?!

Changing Price

Attitudes Adjusted

You sure you want to complain?

19 Sept 2008 - Mum's Upcoming Ops

2008-09-19T21:13:00.005+08:00

next sunday mummy will be admitting in to KKH.

Monday 29 Sept 08, 8am will be her major op.

sad to say, i only will be taking half day leave.

anw cant do much at KKH, only able to wait.

so muznt as well juz work, chiong moi reports.

but surely will be extremely worried.

dunno can concentrate mah.

but no one cover me sia...

30 Sept 08 - mth end, A&E On-call roster.

die die cant take leave.

coz de damn depts' secretaries r slowroaches.

i 6pm nid to submit to A&E, but everytime 5.30pm den get de rosters.

nid to compute, print, cut into 3 sets and pass to A&E.

so every mth end i will haf to OT.

sianz...

so only able to visit mum aft work, most probably will take cab home.

i can imagine how tired i will be.

in and out from 2 hospitals.

anw, who wan jio me out for dinner at bugis for 1 wk, feel free to call mi.

coz no one jio, i most slightly will juz anyhow settle, maybe juz dun bother to eat like how i did previously.

1st Oct 2008 - Hari Raya Puasa (PH)

moi off-day!!! but i nid to go KKH to look aft moi mum.

=.=

but she may discharge on dat day, if she recover fast.

sianz again!~

2nd Oct 2008, i took leave juz in case.

coz according to my estimation, mum most slightly will discharge on this day.

3rd Oct 2008, back to work.

another 2 more reports await for me to do.

and in addition, MOH EP claim.

need to start doin.

argh!~

super sianz...

mummy will be on leave for 6 WEEKS!!!

OMG!!!

can feel dat moi ears will be ripped.

haiz...

left wif this week to 27th Sept to ENJOY moi life b4 moi disaster comes.

coz i will haf to do all de chores again.

cook, clean, wash clothes and more.

=.=

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!~

14th Sept 2008 - Mid Autumn Festival

2008-09-14T21:14:00.005+08:00

ytd finally went to Henderson Wave!!!
took many many fotos...
we had a mini picnic there and did many foolish stuffs tgh.
ahhh so paiseh, nxt time go muz mask moi face liao...
lol...

celebrated moi mid-autumn festivals there with moi jie-meis Joy and tingting, in addition of doreen and a new fren Zann.

(Thanks tinG* for pointing out)
althrough some of us r nt close, but we still get along well and also do lots of crappy stuff tgh.
lanterns were sponsored by joy, fire sparklers and candles were sponsored by doreen.
credit to them, i had alot of funs.

hahaha... discovered the nice night sceneries at Mt Faber.
If anyone is goin there till the sky turns dark, i wld strongly encourage that you can equip urself wif a torchlight.
It was super dark.
rather amazed that the route frm Mt Faber down de hill to somewhere near vivo, there was no lamppost nor any light to guide us dwn de hill.
super scary lah.
esp for a night blindness handicap like me, is really a tedious and scary adventure thru de jungle.
luckily still gt our lanterns, fire sparklers and zen's hp's flashlight, if nt i think i already roll dwn de hill and dunno where i land liao.

some group fotos we took at henderson wave

some pics we took b4 we went Henderson Wave.
My brunch cum abit of my dinner was settle at Anchorpoint's Disney Resturant
Not that expensive as wad i expected.
Generally, GOOD!!

12 Sept 2008 - My Precious Saturdays

2008-09-12T17:39:00.004+08:00

im so tired...
due to some stuffs, moi morning turned foul.

tmr got to come back for work (moi precious day GONE!!!)
=.=
got to learn how to do the Call center reports with moi boss.
but ultimately i will be the one who will be doin them.
de new executive resigned, so i gt to do.

hopefully, i can wear casual clothing tmr.
aft work, will be meeting moi 2 darlings for our HENDERSON WAVE NIGHT TRIP!!!
YEAH!! FINALLY!!!
aft so so many cancellation of our date, we finally goin tmr...
hopefully nth clashes.
this whole mth, my saturdays r fully booked.
but i noe at least i will be happy for this mth's Saturdays.
at least my gurls wont make me sad nor cry.

im excited for tmr's Henderson wave sceneries.

Myhealth.sg

2008-09-10T17:00:00.000+08:00

myhealth.sg is a new website done by CGH.
was recommended by Julius, CGH Principal of System Analyst to sign up.

ya, so i did.
anw, nt bad.
lots of health and fitness info.
trying their weight management programme.
actually for CGH staffs who did the health screening can input their results in and get detailed advises and programmes more suitable for them.

anw, juz wanna share this new site to everyone.
can try using the features and programmes available.
Stay Healthy! =)

10 Sept 2008 - LAZY ANGIE

2008-09-10T11:21:00.005+08:00

Reflection

gotten lazier than ever.
nw im gettin even lazier to move out of moi bed.
so lazy till i will reject away most of the outings and rest at home.

but 1 thing is that i really have lesser time than ever.
nw my 1 day is almost used up by work.
by the time i reach home would be 7pm.
personal time for myself is so limited before my sis come home.
when she is back, everything will be messy and noisy.
sianz...

but it is like 1.5 mth more to the end of my contact.
hope that the contract ends earlier.
my AA is extending for 1 more mth leave.
she will be back on 20th oct.
hmmm, i think i cant take leave liao.
=.=

anw, received a few job offerings le...
quite a few choices frm CGH.
however, i gt the urge to apply for this position to work in oversea.
but it is in china, nt my ideal choice.
im saw many other oversea positions available.
so hopefully, can find my ideal de.

but im nt sure whether im able get thru them.
sg lifestyle is diff frm other countries.
but if it is to work in tw, i dun mind.
nt much language diff and moi english would sound pro there.
LOL..
hmmm, but im sure i nid lotsa courage.
but this is juz an idea.
i dun really quite like wad i haf here, hope to go other places to start afresh.
but if only moi english is good and fluent then Perth or Melbourne would be a good choice.
moi bestest fren is there, i oso like the living lifestyle too.
but there r many opposing factors too.
=(

07 Sept 2008 - Hana Yori Dango Final

2008-09-07T11:31:00.003+08:00

ytd, finally caught Hana Yori Dango at cathay with JOY!
overall, still good lah...
ending is as expected - "Happily Ever After".
but alil unexpected caused the process of people who stirred up the whole event.
not goin to mention who as some of you have not watched yet and may wan to watch.
dun wanna be a spoiler.

my rate for de show - 3.5 stars out of 5 stars.
still not bad, but was expected alil more.
climax was there, many laughing spots, but not very touching to cry abt.

observed smth.
maybe ple who watched it at de theater can shared ur observation abt it too.
me and joy took couple seats.
lol...
but dat's nt de main point.
majorities of the couple seats were taken by GIRL GIRL FRIENDS!!!
lol... aft all, couple seats r more comfy and also at de same price too.
nxt time ple who watch movie wif me, lets take de COUPLE SEATS and snuggle tgh at de movie...
lol...
anw, another point is the whole theater are majorities GIRLS, alil as expected.
but do see some percentages of BGF couples.
i mean that alot of guys wont accompany gurls to watch this kind of show.
coz they dun watch de drama series, so the whole movie was like gonna be boring for them.
but yet, they still pei their GF to watch.
erm... but still can see some black face bfs ard.
gosh...
it is like so cool for a guy to pei his gf to watch de show lah...

another recommendation is the Gourmet popcorn.

of coz it is slightly more expensive than de usual popcorn.
but worth de price and it comes in a pretty box.
Our fav flavour is de sour cream.
but there r other flavours like caramel popcorn, caramel with almonds, cheddar cheese.
NICE!!!
lol...

kkz... this post is silly.
i dunno wad am i writing.
lol... nvm...
1 pic to end off moi silly entry.

Alex – "화분/ Hwaboon/ Flowerpot"

2008-09-01T23:33:00.013+08:00

been hooked onto a new korean variety show, "We Got Married".
it is like another K-variety show "X-Man" where celeb r matched up.
but in "We Got Married", celeb r matched up and pretend as if they r married.
hmmm, hard to explain to.
juz go CR to watch.
really worth watching.
for me, i every night wld need to watch then can slp.
lol...

really love 2 celeb couples in the show.
of coz, de perfect ones - Andy and Solbi aka Anbi couple & Alex and Sinae.
Alex and Sinae is the most ideal kind of relationship that I wish.
They are romantic and abit like de fairytale kind.
But Andy and Solbi kind aint bad either, cute with romantic-ness in them.
lol...

This song was wad Alex sang to Sinae on epi 8.
he asked her to listen to de lyrics attentively.
so sweet...
like de lyrics alot...

Alex – "화분/ Hwaboon/ Flowerpot

화분Plant - Alex (Clazziquai)

멀리서 멀리서 멀리서 그대가 오네요
Meol li seo meol li seo meol li seo geu dae ga o ne yo
You come to me from some place far away

이 떨리는 마음을 어떻게 말해야 하나요
I ddeol li neun ma eumeul eo ddeoh ke malae ya ha na yo
My heart trembles, how can I express my feelings?

그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 빼앗고
Keu daen Cheo eum bu teo na ui ma eumeul bbae eod go
You stole my heart from the start

나을수 없는 병을 내게 주었죠
Na eul su eobd neun byeong eul nae ge ju eodd jyo
and gave me an incurable sickness

화분이 될래요 나는 늘 기도하죠
Hwa buni doel lae yo Na neun neul ki do ha jyo
I want to become a flowerpot. I pray always.

Chorus

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
Nan geu dae jageun chang ga e Hwa buni doel gge yo
I’ll become a flowerpot that sits on your small windowsill

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
A mu mal modhae do pa lal su eobseo do
Though I can’t speak or want anything at all

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
Ka ggeum keu dae ui mi so wa son gileul padeu myeo
I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once in awhile

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
Jam deun keu dae eol gul han eobshi bul su idd gedd jyo
And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep

Verse

멀리도 멀리도 멀리도 그대가 가네요
Meol li do meol li do meol li do Keu dae ga ga ne yo
You leave me for some place far away

떨어지는 눈물을 어떻게 달래야 하나요
Ddeoleo ji neun nun muleul eo ddeoh ke Dal lae ya ha na yo
How can I stop my tears from falling?

그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 가졌고
Keu daen Cheo eum bu teo na ui ma eumeul ka jyeodd go
You had my heart from the start

나을 수 없는 병을 앓게 한 거죠
Na eul su eobd neun byeong eulalh ge han geo jyo
and made me suffer an incurable sickness

화분이 되고픈 나는 늘 기도하죠
Hwa buni doe go peun na neun neul ki do ha jyo
I want to become a flowerpot. I pray always

Chorus

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
Nan geu dae jageun chang ga e Hwa buni doel gge yo
I’ll become a flower pot that sits on your small windowsill

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
A mu mal modhae do ba lal su eobseo do
Though I can’t speak or want anything at all

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
Ka ggeum geu dae ui mi so wa son gileul padeu myeo
I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once in awhile

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
Jam deun geu dae ui eol gul han eobshi bul su idd gedd jyo
And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
Nan geu dae jageun chang ga e Hwa buni doel gge yo
I’ll become a flower pot that sits on your small windowsill

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
A mu mal modhae do ba lal su eobseo do
Though I can’t speak or want anything at all

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
Ka ggeum geu dae ui mi so wa son gileul padeu myeo
I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once in awhile

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
Jam deun geu dae ui eol gul han eobshi bul su idd gedd jyo
And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep
난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
Nan geu dae jageun chang ga e Hwa buni doel gge yo
I’ll become a flower pot that sits on your small windowsill

아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
A mu mal modhae do ba lal su eobseo do
Though I can’t speak or want anything at all

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
Ka ggeum geu dae ui mi so wa son gileul padeu myeo
I’ll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once in awhile

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
Jam deun geu dae ui eol gul han eobshi bul su idd gedd jyo
And I’ll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep

28 Aug 2008 - how much do you know about me?

2008-08-28T23:24:00.003+08:00

hasnt been in a good mood for a long time.
ever since i reached sg from moi tw trip.
let not tok abt de reasons behind moi moodiness.

been wanting to go to somewhere quiet to think abt some stuff.
some places like east coast park, where de breeze seems to blow away de disturbance, leaving juz a peaceful airy mind to think.

but i dun really like to go out alone.
maybe juz afraid of being alone except for certain locations.

but i raring to go to this place to see the night view, guess it will be visually breathtaking:

credits pic to tingting's blog

been tryin to go there with my frenz for quite some time, but always unsuccessful.
hopefully i can go there soon.

been bottling lotsa things, really cant find anyone to say them out.
sorry, nt even to you, Joy.
although i will call you aft work or whenever i very very free, some thing we will still kip it inside them.
it is still an ultimate secret, that everyone would haf one in them.

sometimes really gt de urge to say them out, but there isnt a correct person.
nt even de very best fren.
always been hearing, "ya...", "uhmm", "aiyo... y like dat?" and many chekpalang expression.
really nt de kind of reaction you wanna hear esp when u r feelin very down.

honestly how much do you noe abt mi?
try listing it down.
other den "my fav colour", "my age", "no of ple in my family" and other basic info.
how much do you noe abt de in-depth mi?
like "wad is my real character?", "wad is my relationship like with my family?", "which country i want to go most?", "wad is the 1st award i got?" and more.
likewise how much do i noe u?
i doubt i noe much.

so wad can i define best fren?
i noe best fren slightly more than a normal fren.
dat it?!

i oso dunno wad i wan exactly.
how can i expect wad other wan frm mi?
haiz...

juz let mi hang in de mid-air bah.

24 Aug 2008 - NEW BLOGSKIN AGAIN!!!

2008-08-24T02:35:00.005+08:00

made a new blogskin!!!
YEAH!!!
Finally aft pushin back for several months.
honestly moi previous blogskin was crap lah...
bth for quite long le...
forced myself since evening to do this blogskin.
All thanks to the heavy downpour for the whole day which bored me and oso motivated me to do smth useful.
lol...

you can compare the old and new blogskin:

OLD blogskin

NEW blogskin

see the differences?

improved on the colour used, but changing it to a more general colour "BLACK".

if you realised everything is bigger:
Font Size
Picture
Layout

nw readers dun haf to use magnifying glasses or lao hua spect liao...
hahah...
i also split the layout to 3 different columns, so that you dun haf to scroll and scroll and scroll.
nw it is shorter and you can view more stuff at a time.

it is more colourful, but theme colour is still pink.
my most prefered colour.
LOL...

kkz... nw it is 2.30am liao...
very tired sia...
and im hungry...
im craving for roti prata.
it've been a long long time since i ate roti prata...
but sianz... it is extremely fattening...
=.=

anw, I NID COMMENTS for MORE improvements...
so tag mi to share wif mi ur views =)
Logical comments are beneficial to my future inspirations for my future blogskins.
kkz... Tata!~

21 Aug 2008 - BACK FRM TAIWAN

2008-08-21T22:56:00.006+08:00

IM BACK FROM TAIWAN!
was back on monday midnight.
been really busy since I landed in SG.
aft exiting frm the arrival gates, went to T2 to pass the food to boss.
but he wasnt dere, only dat stupid new manager.
she noes my name, but dunno who m i?!
STUPID SIA!
we met b4 lor, and previously she acted like she knew mi like dat.
=.=

anw, on overall TW trip was good.
except the traffic was scary, things there were ex except for the food.
we spent mostly on food sia.
spent abt NT19k dere!
on things dat i dun see much at all.
faintz...

but i think that it is really something for 3 gurls to navigate ard taiwan w/o much help at all.
YAY!!! WE R THE AWESOME THREESOME!!!
lol...

seriously, i think we shud write a travel guide on our trip.
lol...
we oso tot of the name for our book.
hahaha...
we really experience alot.
I think if you really wan to know taiwan alot, it will be good to navigate ard on ur own and understand them personally.
Coz thru the process u can experience their style of living and oso observe the unknown side of taiwan.

hmmm...
in taipei for so long, i've been missing SG.
miss my bed, the safe traffic, nice weather (current taiwan's weather is super humid and wet, worst than SG), OUR GOVERNMENT! and the CLEAN & GREEN ENVIRONMENT!!!
but taiwan oso haf their Pros too.
The cheap and huge variety of food, huge variety of beauty products & clothings, fast metro (short waiting time), neat queue on the escalators, nice sceneries and NICE TV PROGRAMMES!!!

hahaha... i kinda influence viv and carrin to watch bangbangtang and heisehuimeimei.
lol...
but really, their channels r really entertaining except chnl 15 and 16.
dun ask wad channels r dey.
=.=
sometimes the shows u wanna watched r broadcast at different channels but at the same time.
sianz... missed...
but at least back in sg i can (*coughs* dld *coughs*) watch again.
=)

really appreciating sg better.
sianz... but im missing de food dere.
tot i wont haf tw blues, but im having serious one.

MOST IMPTLY, im growing FAT!
gosh...
DIET!!!
I WAN TO SLIM DOWN!!!
so far still dun dare to weight myself on de weighing machine yet.
lol...

wan see more pic??
see frm my facebook album bah.

Taiwan Trip - Day 1

Taiwan Trip - Day 2

Taiwan Trip - Day 3

Taiwan Trip - Day 4 [Part 1]

Taiwan Trip - Day 4 [Part 2]

Taiwan Trip - Day 5

Taiwan Trip - Day 6 [Part 1]

Taiwan Trip - Day 6 [Part 2]

Taiwan Trip - Day 7

Taiwan Trip - Day 8

11 Aug 2008 - OUT OF TOWN

2008-08-11T01:58:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!
A few more hours to my flight to taiwan!!
will only be back on the 19 Aug 2008.
I'm going to enjoy myself lots.
so excited, cant sleep at all.
hahaha...

but quite sian de is dat my "Auntie" visited my a few hours ago, and she is tagging along for my taiwan trip.
sianz...

I really wish that I can pack you into my luggage and bring you to taiwan with me.
but provided that you dont exceed the MAX baggage weight abroad the flight.
wish you can send me off tmr, but i guess you are extremely busy bah.
sobs...
I'm sure will MISS YOU LOTS!!!

yes...
to all my dearies who will be missing me, you can view my blog and see this pic of me while im away!!!
hahaha...
I will miss u!!!
Hope you will miss me too!!!.

08 Aug 2008 - National Day EVE!

2008-08-08T16:36:00.003+08:00

It's friday!
FINALLY!!!
I lookin forward to the brand new week!
hahaha...
I flying...
Flying to taiwan, to see the HOT Taiwanese Summer Boys!
YAY!!!
i admit, my eyes are so deprive of hot cute boys for months.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?
CGH has pathetic amt of eye-catching guys. (OH MY!)
and im planning to work perm here. (OH NO!!!)

This whole weekend, I AM SO BUSY!!!
today aft work, I will be meet moi 4 BGFs to discuss abt de taiwan trip.
hmm...
alot muz be wonderin suddenly pop out 1 more.
coz gt avan who will be goin sept.
and he's meetin us to get our info.
I made a file of personal taiwan research.

LELONG!!! LELONG!!!

ANGIE's TAIWAN GUIDE FILE is GOING at SG$20!~
(excl postage fee, 7% GST and 10% Service charge)

haha...
okok...
back to him. Y is he BGF, coz he is our BEST GAY FRIEND!!!

hahaha...
im abit siao siao today, coz in office too long liao.
nth much to do.
brains rottin too.

anw, back to my plan.
tmr, NATIONAL DAY!!!
yes! tmr is 43th birthday of SINGAPORE!!!
I will be out with my frenz for a nice nite out =)

Sunday!!! One more day to TW Trip!~
1 last day for mi to pack my luggage.
I have nt finish completing packing my luggage yet.
left tmr and sunday!!!
hmmm...
kkz... JIAYOU!!!

im so excited for de trip!
YAY!!!

05 Aug 2008 - I'M SO FREE NW!

2008-08-05T10:41:00.003+08:00

It is reaching 11am and i finished my work.
gosh...
sianz... nth to do leh.
den ytd, busy like hell still OT.
If i knew, i should have left my report till today.
aiyo...
in office, stare at computer nia.
waste time, wasting my beauty slping time too.
=.=
in addition, my boss left for reservist and will be back only on 21st Aug, which is good to a certain extent.
haiz...
but nth much for mi to do either.
CGH viv oso gt nth for mi to do either.

anw, im starting to recover frm my sickness.
coughing is starting to reduce.
voice is regaining, but at time still speak without voice.
fever and running nose are still on and off...
hopefully, after abstaining from all those unhealthy food and cold drinks (including ice water), I can quickly recover.
there is a need to recover soon, as I wan go taiwan to eat.

阿宗麵線，

棺材板，

蚵仔煎，

芒果冰，

米苔目，

阿給，

特大炸鸡排，

大腸包小腸，

道地的珍珠奶茶，

and many many more...

drooling liao...
lol...
aft trip from taiwan, i sure nid go diet liao...
cfm grow fat de...
dotz...
kkz... ple who wan to go jog or wadeva to trim down fats jio mii!!!
=)

declare 5 more days to the amazing exploration to TAIWAN!!!

03 Aug 2008 - Really nt well

2008-08-03T20:45:00.000+08:00

it've been a wk plus since i had fallen sick.
and ever since last nite, i been getting worst.
nw feel like throwin out moi dinner.
having bad headache too.
gosh...
i suspectin is it gt to do wif de medication.
de medicine doesnt seem to help me much at all.

and i cant fallen any sicker as tmr i cfm nid to go to work.
2 reports to rush, 2 meetings to attend and other work on hand.
and tmr boss last day b4 he go for reservists.
cfm nid to do some handover.

im so dead sia...
really nt well...
=.=
hope i can slp early ltr...
10pm - shut down everything, incl myself.
so no disturb aft 10pm kkz...

03 Aug 08 - Family Affairs AGAIN

2008-08-03T10:04:00.002+08:00

It is always about THEM.
how bad we r to dem, how they suffer for us, how this, how dat...
and if i would to complain back, then it is fate, coz im born in this family.
ya... it is all fate and destiny that brought me here to meet my difficulties and etc.
so i haf to accept it, NO it is a MUST to accept them.
Coz it is all FATE and DESTINY! MY LIFE.
Facts that cant change that IM BORN HERE!
even though i dont wish to, BUT IT IS MY FATE!
the so called "ARRANGEMENT" from GOD.
i haf nv met anything else in life to put me to an end. Only FAMILY.

suddenly, I start to doubt his presence.
how fair he is, how he judge to make all these arrangement for me, and why he always arrange so much bad sufferings for me.
Good to see someone suffers?
yaya... the positive thinking will be, coz we go thru these, so that we learn.
another thinking, coz he has his reasons for all his arrangement.
and no one else would suffer as much as wad Jesus Christ had gone thru for us his children.

what other reasons?
i cant convince myself.
i dun wan to recognise this FATE and DESTINY!!!
if i haf to, I WILL HATE MYSELF.
coz im so useless, i cant change anything.
but it is true dat i cant change.

dat is also y i chose to live in my dreams.
nw even if im sick, i oso chose to work.
it is better than stayin at home.
anyway, staying home cant help much.
nt as if i can rest much.
juz as i woke up and opened the door, shoutings and scoldings start.
wad is the point?
do i need to start my day like dis?
i wld rather slp thru and do nothing like a coma patient.

so full of rubbish lah!!!
i hate it!!!
QUICK!!! Let Aug 11 come faster!!!

27 Jul 2008 - Finally OVER!~

2008-07-27T01:22:00.004+08:00

YES!~
it is finally OVER!!!
aft 4 yrs, wif moi stiff bones, i performed my last dance to moi fellow frenz and sch mates.
i enjoyed it, had moi fun and i presented my best.
although, nt very perfect, i still felt gd abt it.
it is always de process dat matter.
though along de way we haf many different opinions, annoyed wif each other at times and sometime oso felt like giving up.
but our common PASSION, our canossian spirit juz lead us on.
on de way, we grow up, went thru them tgh and helped each other.

it was really GREAT to haf u guys.
HONESTLY and REALLY REALLY!, im so touched by everyone.
i almost cried aft my item.
but i hold on my tears and told myself i cant cry.
coz i still haf finale to go.
and i MUZ BE GLAM when im on stage and oso when i meet my frenz.

To be frank this time round de concert was a success.
all of us put in lotsa efforts.
and ple who came for de concert, i think de tix u paid for r VALUE FOR MONEY!!!
though i wasted 1 tix.
haiz...
but still, i think ple who din make it, u lost a GREAT SHOW.
hahaha... but it is up to oneself to judge de value.

anw thank gurls!
naming:
yiNgz and dou - pink daisy
JOY, TINGTING, SUSU - sunflower
VIV and CARRIN! - piglet balloon and pink daisy

THANKS for de presents and ur supports.
I hope u all enjoyed too.
ur presence made up my day, and boost my pride.
=)

will try to post de pix up soon.
most slightly floodin moi blog, friendster and facebook =)
hahaha...

anw, im so tired and slpy nw.
but still gt to wait for hair to be dried den can slp.
hopefully, tonite i can slp well and longer too.
coz whole of last nite been dreamin abt de performance for Swirl of Sensations.
tot dat im in high stress, so been dreamin abt it.
NIGHTMARE SIA!!!
lol...
kkz...
NITEZ!!!

CONGRATS TO STEPHEN!!!
HE is finally ATTACHED!!!

LDR!~ JIAYOU!

23 Jul 2008 - FALL SICK =(

2008-07-23T17:45:00.004+08:00

it was like a week ago dat i recovered frm moi flu bug.
but nw im sick again.
=.="
moi office colleagues passin de virus ard.
vivienne gettin well, grace fell sick and sat dwn did de haze report wif mi.
and cough cough cough, nw phoof...
IM SICK!!! o.O
flu, itchy throat, cough and i think im experiencing a slight fever nw.
so drowsy even though i din eat any medicine.
but im so tired.
every nite less than 6hrs of slp den wakes up for work.
in addition of de stress and pack schedule im coping wif.
immune system weak liao, with these kind of conditions, wont fall sick cai guai.
moi precious face oso goin against my will.
poppin more and more pimples.
1 subside le, another *POP* outs again.
=.=

zzzZZZzzz...
faintz...
i wan to slp lah...
but moi To-Do List is like so damn long lah...
tonite gonna slp late again.
freak!

and i think dis is de last post till moi performance is over.
im sure gonna flood dat post aft de concert wif lotsa pixs.

b4 i end off this post and oso work.
i juz wanna say:

我现在是又怕又期待。

好复杂的心情喔！

20 Jul 2008 - Dance Practice

2008-07-20T20:17:00.002+08:00

i really very sianz...
kip 4gt de dance step.
Gosh!
but im workin real hard to improve myself.
and aft ytd's practice, i felt dat i did better compared to the previous practices.
but i still think it isn't enuff.

i have nt practiced so hard for freakin 4 yrs.
whole of ytd was feelin so so tired and whole body is aching.
haiz...
less than 1 wk to the comin performance.

STRESS!!! STRESS!!! STRESS!!!

suddenly feel like backing out of the performance.
felt a lil stupid for torturing myself.
becoz of this performance, i gave up alot of things.
haiz...

but lookin on the bright side, a few more wks to my Taiwan trip!!!
YAY!!!
aft which can rest and relax liao...
=)

but still feeling quite heavy hearted.
=.=

15 Jul 08 - Finish work liao

2008-07-15T18:00:00.001+08:00

see the time of this entry?

FINALLY FINISH WORK!!!

i wan slp le...

GOOD BYE OFFICE, be back tmr =)

14 Jul 2008 - Current Hit List

2008-07-14T11:29:00.006+08:00

Songs on my HIT list
Read the Lyrics of these songs, very meaningful

1) 会呼吸的痛 - 梁静茹

2) 半情歌 - 元若蓝

3) 知道 - 郭静

4) 我的快乐 - 锦绣二重唱

5) 一个人失忆 - 薛凯琪

Lyric brings emotions into the flow of the melodious musical notes.
dont u agree too?

12 Jul 2008 - Pre-Dance Concert Trauma

2008-07-12T21:26:00.003+08:00

im ultimately stress nw.
mood realli realli nt very good at all...
firstly coz im very tired.
been workin and also in de midst of my preparation for the upcomin dance concert.

and other than feelin tired.
Mainly it will be the bottlenecks i faced in the performance.
Up till nw, i still having difficulties to rmb de steps.
somehow i oso dun wan to embarass myself bah.
i really haf high expectations for myself.
ultimately, i dun wan to disappoint my frenz who r comin to support mi.
Gosh! 1 wk 1 practice is hard realli pathetic compared to the jrs who haf frequent CCA practices.
in addition of de sch sacartic remarks to all the performers really demoralised all of us bah.
somehow, i think dat the tix sale cant rely on us bah.
but gd news is sat tix are on de verge of sold out.
tix sales for fri r horrible.

anw, i still haf 1 more $20 tix for sat.
initially wan pass to fren, but in de end CMI.
den pass to another fren, another fren oso CMI.
wanted to sell to jr but she bought liao.
so gd liao lor!
im wastin away 1 tix.
hmm... but anyone wan juz tell mi bah.

ok! still bad mood.
haiz...
bye, go emo alone!~

2008-07-08T17:52:00.003+08:00

will be away frm 11 Aug to 18 Aug.
cant wait to go taiwan!!!
been doin research.
hope to get a rest soon.

performance is comin up soon.
gettin nervous sia.
12 Jul - Full Dress Rehearsal @ SACSS Hall
24 Jul - Full Dress Rehearsal @ VT
25 & 26 Jul - CONCERT!!!

gosh...
will be extremely busy till im back frm tw.
weee~
anw ple any recommendations for my tw trip??
msn mi =)

08 Jul 2008 - crave

2008-07-08T17:48:00.000+08:00

Crave for these?

Random Quiz at Work

2008-06-26T18:10:00.000+08:00

kkz, im so free in office nw.
so decided to update up moi bloggie.

I was tagged by liting therefore Here! is moi quiz qns.

Rules of the Taggy Quiz:
A] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B] Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Q&A:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- I will ditch him for a good cost.

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
- wah!~ chim qn. I juz wish dat everyone including me will be happy and no regrets to anything.
Wo hao wei da rite... LOL!

#3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?
- I wish to be in my own lala fairytale land whereby there is only unlimited of joy (nt dat human Joy) and laughter. No tears, EMO and anger. I can do whatever I like and heck care anyone.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
- Confused?? I think im more then juz confused. Im lost!

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
- Someone that perfects me, loves me much, gives me sense of security and leads me to my final destination in life.
Chim!~ I think this person extincts liao bah

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Being loved bah. If he gives me sufficient loves, I will love him even more bah.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- I think infinite bah. BUT, if i dun see a future btn us, den i will rather bear de pain, FORGET and MOVE ON!

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- eh... hmmm.. Forget him and move on. He loses a good gain.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
- WAH! LONG LONG LIST leh... Practically everything.

#10. What do you want most in life?
- Same as ting. HAPPINESS!~ But I am alil more greedy, i wan unlimited of it.

#11. Is being tagged fun?
- hmmm... to a certain extent. Coz im so bored in office.

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
- OH NO!!! PANICs~ de first digit increased! OLD but PRETTY!!!

#13. Who is the current most important person to you?
- MUAHAHAHA!! MYSELF and frenz who treasures me. Family? OUT! of my list.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- A gurl who gets emo easily and lacks of an quan gan, but yet wif her ztlg, she feels loved and happy.

#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Hahaha... wad a qn. I wish to be Single and Rich but yet happily attached.

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ?
- erm... is fish included in the list?? I wan an aquarium...

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
- hmmm... Stay home wif 3 evil monsters.

#18. What kind of person do you think you are?
- hmm... i have been describe as a bubbly, cheerful and happy "tai tai". But I AM NOT!!!
I think I am more of an emo gurl who stops herself frm grievin her life off.
hmmm... very luan luan mood gurl bah...

#19. What do you define as a bad day?
- when everything is affecting my mood and bringing me super down down down.

#20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?
- HMM!!! BOTH!!! i am greedy!!!

haha... stop here, as i finish work liao!!!
YEA! 6PM!!!
so no further tagging others.
I dun like to pass on chain chain msg, letter or quiz... lol...

19 Jun 2008 - SACSS DANCE CONCERT E-POSTER

2008-06-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

TIX TO MY DANCE CONCERT ARE OUT!!!

2 DATES to choose, either 25 or 26 Jul 2008 (FRI or SAT)
VENUE @ Victoria Theater
TIME @ 7.30pm but seated by 7.15pm
PRICES @ $15, $20, $25 (Free Seating but with Zone Restriction depends on the price of the tix purchase)

SAC students can purchase their tickets at the CCA office from Ms Jezialle from Mondays to Fridays, 2pm - 4pm.

Members of the public can call the number on the e-poster to make enquiries as to how they can purchase tickets. Members of the public can choose to collect their tickets at the door on the concert day. However, they will need to make payment first.

Another option is to buy them from me =)

19 Jun 2008 =.=

2008-06-19T22:39:00.004+08:00

very well...
1st it was yiNgz den followed by joy, nxt it is OH!!! Doudou!!
WOW!~
all gt bf liao, left mi wor...
great~
=.=

BUT WHY WHY WHY!!!
P.O.C (Product of China)?!?
i cant find a reason to convince myself dat de guy suits u or wad...
yayaya... u can find mi stereotyping...
but it is still de jie mei's piece of advise.
it is all up to u, as long as u r HAPPY!!!
at least u found someone who luv u and u startin to like dat someone.
hmmm...
nvm...
i happy being ALONE!!!
at least w/o nan ren, i still live very happily!!!

=.=

ANYWAY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG SIONG SWEE!!!

happy celebration in CAMP!!! =)

Incanto

2008-06-09T15:59:00.000+08:00

Incanto

Incanto Heaven
Inspired by daydreams and mythology, this Incanto incarnate celebrates the magic of fortune and the creative power of the imagination, using fruity notes of grapefruit, apple, and apricot. Playful florals like peony and violet weave their own dreamy appeal, which perfectly underscores the scent's fresh and flirty tone.
Notes: Grapefruit, Seringa Flower, Apple, Pink Peony, Apricot, Hibiscus Flower Tea, Violet, Musk
Style: Magical. Bright. Luscious

Incanto Dreams
Inspired by the joyful bliss created in one's imagination. This fresh sparkling fruits, fresh blossoms, sandalwood, and musk fragrance evokes the feeling of joy a women feels when she believes in her dream.
Notes: Blend fresh sparkling fruits, fresh blossoms, sandalwood, and musk.
Style: Sweet. Bright. Feminine.

Incanto Charms
Escape with this exotic fruity-floral with notes of passion fruit, honeysuckle, and jasmine - a colorful blend of European chic and the magical allure of the Far East.
Notes: Honeysuckle, Passion Fruit, Jasmine, Ottoman Rose, Amyris Wood, Musk.
Style: Free-spirited, feminine, and glamorous.

Incanto Shine
Inspired by sheer happiness, the pleasure of peace and harmony, and long walks at one with nature, this whimsical fragrance is a sunny blend of ripe fruits, fresh blossoms, warm woods, and soothing amber.
Notes: Pineapple, Passion Fruit, Freesia, Peach, Cedarwood, Amber.
Style: Fresh. Playful. Delicate.

Incanto Dreams =), my new perfume
nice scent.
but i recommend, Incanto Heaven or Charms.
But like wad Joy described, when dream faints off, it smells like heaven and it has a close scent to charm too.

09 Jun 2008 - New day at work

2008-06-09T14:37:00.003+08:00

so sianz...
currently nth to do at work.
coz moi mentor took half day leave.
lunch ate full full, nw feel like slping.
zzzzz...
anw, job seems ok lah.
but 1st day nia, so cant comment much either.
lol...
hopefully it will be good for mi.

05 Jun 2008 - Finally Appeal DONE!!!

2008-06-05T22:38:00.003+08:00

Finally i submitted my reaching 1000 characters appeal for NUS and 50 words of appeal for NTU!!!
I was reminded by Jimmy and Michelle several times to do my appeal.
hahaha...
machiam like my parents, but much more concern than moi real ones.
thanks alot...

tmr is moi last day of work as PSA (patient service assistant) at Rehab CGH.
YAY!!!
BYE BYE troublesome gurl!!!
but sab told mi she is pregnant for 3 wks!!!
happy for her but at the same time oso very worried coz scare dat gurl will stress her out.
she was miscarriage once, hopefully nt another time.
anyway all i can say is GD LUCK to them...

hahaha, but i may be back again, but nt at Rehab.
coz i went for an interview today for the position admin assistant.
duties gt do statistical reports, admin support for A&E, some secretarial work.
hmmm... at least i dun haf to handle those irritating foreign workers' companies.
zzzzzz...
nvm....
TMR LAST DAY OF WORK!!
WHAHAHA!!!
im so so SO SO SO SO SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!
lol...
hope tmr is one good day to end off my work...
=)

anw, today in history!!!
Joy's BF and Boyang today are due for NS le!!!
hahaha...
joy joy joy, going alone for 2 wks...
i will ignore u for 2 wks...
revenge for being zhong se qing you...
same goes for yingz too...
dou dou rmb wad we said kkz...
WHAHAHA!!!

Blessing in disguise!!!
heng heng i no bf...
if he go NS still haf to worry and miss him for 2 long long wks.
sure will tio xiang si bing di...
lol...
cant recall who is goin in tmr too...
hmmm, juz wish them and whoeva u r good luck bah...

31 May 2008 - La Passion 2 Dance Concert

2008-05-31T20:34:00.002+08:00

Finally, La Passion 2 Dance Concert Dates r fixed and Tix are Out for Sales...

Featuring: SACSS Indian Dance and Modern Dance
Date: 25 and 26 July 2008 (Fri and Sat) Choose one Date
Venue: Victoria Theatre
Time: Night Time (4gt to ask, shud be ard 7pm onwards bah)
Tix Price: $15, $20, $25 (Back, Middle, Front)

kkz... Frenz, who wan to go can contact mi.
Good Frenz all have to go.
If you love mi soo much or think im impt, choose the Front rows ($25) tix...
If you think im nt dat impt lah, den you can choose the Back rows ($15) tix...
ehemmm... you all noe who u r, so zhi dong hor...
buy which tix hor depends where i am in your heart...
hahaha...
jkjk nia lah...
Middle row Tix will be sufficient lah...
BUT Front row Tixs r PREFERRED...
hahaha...

All proceeds goes to our school fund-raising for the coming PRIME.
so help help lah...
we nid a bigger studio and more locations for our dance practices.
i dun wan to dance at the sch canteen liao...
of coz, there will be nicer classrooms, bigger hall hopefully.
so the gurls wont cramp up anymore.
nt sure the convent will be renovating mah.
but if gt, gif the nuns better places to stay.

28 May 2008 - TERRIBLE DAY AT WORK

2008-05-28T21:40:00.003+08:00

GOSH!!!
I HAD A SUPER TERRIBLE DAY AT WORK!!!
DAT GURL IS MURDERING MI!!!
Soon i nid to go to A&E to see doc le...
ever since she stepped into the counter.
she started askin silly questions.
damn...
and every referral, every appt, she kept askin mi.
as if she din learn it b4.
freak hell...
was controllin moi temper.
zainap started to make fun and was hintin to everyone dat im abt to haf moi "PMS".
haha...
but all of dem were kinda "ti liang" for mi.
anw i dint hold much long till i erupted.

AFTERNOON WORST!!!
she took abt 1hr plus to sort the casenotes for MSP which has the least no of casenotes.
less than 30 bah.
i was freakin stunned by her progress.
so i asked her, why so long???
she can still proudly said dat coz alot of c/n nt in trolley!!
OMG!!! no c/n miss lesser, so juz write tracer slip, if nt refer to retrieval list to check which clinic to transfer nia mah.
in de end, i gt to help her do one hand OT trolley (at least double of her MSP trolley of C/N) which hardly took mi 20 mins to do it, returnin and sendin of c/n to other clinics.
she was freakin slow till i gt to pei her do till 6.30pm.
zzzzzzz...

argh!~
tmr, fri and mon oso de same.
damn...
i cfm MC on fri liao...
fri gt dance rehearsal, go recruit to submit timesheet and nitez gt gatherin.
let halena do wif her bah...
i really had enuff of dat noob liao...
BTH!!!

thinkin abt tmr, i feel like cryin ah...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
god bless mi!!!
AMEN!!

27 May 2008 - Doom Week

2008-05-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

Doom!!!
tmr halena will be on leave.
thurs, fri and nxt mon, sab will be on leave.
so counter will leave mi, dat new gurl and either of dem.
i can expect disasterSSSS to occur.
and moi lunchtime will be drag too, till abt 2plus bah.
=.=

dat new gurl hopeless lah...
she is here for like reaching 3 wks and she still struck at registration and casenotes.
when i was workin for abt 3 wks, i had started learning on billing, casenotes i had done independently too.

im so worried abt moi casenotes.
damn...
today 2 mini trolleys of casenotes already took her more than an hour to do liao.
while using the same amt of time, i completed 2 big trolleys of casenotes.
reaching 3 WEEKS LIAO!!!
why why still so slow and retard??
i really doubt her listenin skill.
askin her to do smth simple, i nid to repeat for freakin shit no of times.
she can nod her head and go back to her seat and stare blank.
GOSH!!!
in the end, i had to do it.
dunno it is she really cant hear or wad leh!!
her counter fone can ring for very long and dunno is she pretend cant hear or the fone gt virus she so scare to hear.
nid to kip repeating " Ellis can u pick up the fone? Ellis can u pick up the FONE?? ELLIS PICK UP THE FONE!!!"
finally she picks up den she pick dwn the fone.
i really wonder she hang the fone up on purpose or really the person on the line really put dwn the the fone??

in addition, she has freakin BAD attitude, shitty stubborn and RUDE.
u tell her off smth she did wrongly, she will gif dat F**k up face.
if nt she will throw her tantrum by slammin the things, gif attitude and etc.
stubbornly she repeats the mistakes and everything starts all over again.
another bad habit she has is dat she like to snatch things.
example: when i am holdin a referral letter, and if u wan it, u will say "Excuse Me, can i haf it?" and take it nicely frm mi.
but her case is, she wan it. She simply juz snatch it away frm ur hands.
GOD!!!
feel like askin her where her manners???
and worst thing is that she did it to the patients too.
o.O
2 days did casenotes with her, i had to suffer her shits.
pls lah...
u r workin and nt at ur own hse leh...
of coz we gt to learn and throw away all our temper esp when u r at customer service line.

argh!~
controling moi temper.
soon will explode.
im so so surprise i can take it for so long.
halena, sabrina, zinap, tina and some therapists already blew at her.
some of us who r tryin to be patient.

moi colleagues been askin mi, why am i so so SO cheerful recently??
i replied, "coz i cant pull my face, if i gt sad or wadeva -ve feelings, i scare i cant control and will erupt."
but they could see moi stress up face.
and being considerate, they tried nt to disturb mi and joked ard wif mi.
eased moi tension.
esp during brk, dat new gurl had became our lunch topic.
even staffs frm other dept and clinics also discuss abt her.
diaoz...
but finally i could see unity in our dept too.
all becoz of her.

haiz...
sianz... thinkin abt the rest of my wk, everything is ruined by her...
pray hard the rest of the wk will be a gd day for mi...
and rest of the wk, cant go out to makan liao...
bleagh...

26 May 2008 - 我想着天空什么时候会放晴

2008-05-26T23:47:00.003+08:00

it is reaching 12am soon.
tmr i gt to wake up early for work.
but i still cant slp.
juz finish watching moi tw drama 【命中注定我爱你 11】.

cried thru the show.
i noe it is bad to cry at night, coz de very nxt day sure will haf eyebags.
but somehow, i realli nid to release the tears and emotions.
the show was a medium for mi to gt touchy and cried out.
really quite like de show and is awaiting for the nxt esp liao...

haiz...
i feel like goin east coast again.
but this time, i juz wanna be alone.
while cycling, i will listen to moi music and juz admire the sceneries.
enjoy the smooth breezy wind and also feel the sea calmness.
somehow, it will relieve the retension within mi bah...

anw viv, carrin and i finally fix on the days to tw.
11-17 aug.
trip takes abt $700+.
jetstar is nw havin promo, half-price tix...
this really helps us save alot and thus able us to spend more for the trip.
quite lookin forward to it.

will be completin CGH job by 6 Jun 2008.
aft which will be busy findin new job and oso with the la passion 2 dance rehearsals.
really hope concert will come soon.
so i can quick end it and commit to my job.
since NTU and NUS rejected moi applications and i still unsure wad shud i write for the 50 words appeal.
plus with moi family "Support", motivation for further study haf been reduced.
but kind of thinkin to try SIM.
haiz...
been hearing advises frm moi therapists, but still so unsure abt moi future.
juz decide as the day come bah.

to mi, life have been "Smooth thru".
pri sch, no matter how lazy i was, i still managed to pass PSLE and gt to express stream which was unexpected for mi but yet ideal.
sec sch, always been on the verge of retenting or dropin to NA.
but yet still managed to push up and passed a min grade for 'O' lvls.
aft which still gt into polytechnic.
nt very ideal, but at least still a poly education.
but nw, uni seem so far for mi and career seem like a mist for mi.
unassured wad will happen and wad will be there for mi.
taken everything too readily and easily.
presently causing a difficult task for mi to accept the facts.
haiz... freak sianz...

life is so difficult and i hope moi new wish will come true.
a life wif lesser regrets and suffering.
cant take it much longer.

22 May 2008 - ARRIVAL of MY FACIAL MASKS!!!

2008-05-22T00:10:00.003+08:00

finally moi masks arrived =)
Purchased on 11 May 2008 and 21 May 2008 arrived at moi mailbox!!!
Fast sia...
YIPPIE!!!
facial every sat nitez for mi =)
weeeee~

all the masks that we ordered!!!
43 Masks + 3 Bonus Eye Masks (in blue)

The 37 Masks + 2 Bonus Masks that I bought

TingTing de Mask =)

19 May 2008 - Depression Screening Test

2008-05-19T12:24:00.002+08:00

feeling upset and dispirited???
or do u have any of these symptoms???

Changes in sleep habits such as insomnia, early morning awakening, or sleeping too much.
Changes in eating habits such as loss of appetite or weight gain.
Decreased energy, feeling of fatigue.
Restlessness and irritability.
Difficulty in concentration, remembering, and making decisions.
Feelings of hopelessness, helplessness, guilt or worthlessness.
Persistent sad, anxious, or empty feelings.
Loss of interest in pleasurable activities, such as involvement with loved ones or hobbies.
Thoughts of death or suicide.

try doing these tests and see how u score...

http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/bipolar-disorder-153804-40.html
http://www.lessons4living.com/depression_test2.htm
http://www.med.nyu.edu/psych/screens/depres.html

15 May 2008 -

2008-05-15T21:36:00.002+08:00

我们未必最后会和心里最爱的人结婚

结婚未必是你所深爱的人

结婚是和一位愿意陪你走一辈子

smth i heard frm de radio, aft hearin it, many tots ran thru moi mind.
i dunno wad some of u will think.
but honestly i think it is absolute true.

haiz...
recently too many inner feelings le...
smth cant be said out, even to the closest frenz.
tryin to suppress myself, but i really feelin extremely upset with myself.
i can actually cried while slpin.
was very amazed wif myself.
but i really cant push myself any further.
i wan to run away frm everything.
weakling, u can say.
so be it, coz u wont understand how i feel within me, the deepest part of me...

11 May 2008 - MASKIES!!!

2008-05-11T22:46:00.006+08:00

i cant believe i bought 37 masks (34 face masks and 3 eye masks) for $36.55.
wan to noe the masks i bought go to this spree website and see the LJ nick angelistenin...
gt 6 masks belong to tingting...
i think includin moi current instock masks, i can use up to a yr.
but i really nid to whiten and hydrate moi skin.
i demand to improve moi skin condition.
and i really dun wan to be recognise as a malay.
=(

anw, today mothers' day.
mum still gt to work.
sianz... tot i could bring her out to a restaurant to eat, but she is busy.
so juz haf a simple dinner near moi hse de hawker.
=.=
hawker oso gt freakin lots of ple lah...
haiz...
i paid for the dinner.
moi sis only paid for her bundung and moi mum's sugarcane drink.
diaoz...
wadeva...
whole day wasnt in the right mood, all becoz of her and her bf.
i dun wan to say any further.
coz these 2 r hopeless pair of bitch and bastard.

haf anyone even seen someone who does terrible things (PLENTY OF IT) and still be so yaya-papaya and scream back at u and ask u to go away and dun disturb her???
i haf nv, but today i witnessed it.
anw, wad to expect.
she always gif unexpecting "SURPRISE"!!!

haiz...
I WAN TO MOVE OUT SOON!!!

but 1stly, i nid to save up for moi PSP slim and lite and moi taiwan trip in aug wif viv and carrin...

SHOPPING!!!

11 May 2008 - education in SG

2008-05-11T19:22:00.000+08:00

2 more weeks of work at CGH.
aft dat, lookin for another job.
still very very uncertain abt moi future.
why cant dat damn uni juz accept us.
actually i think having a GPA above 3 is gd enuff liao.
think dat the sickenin govt have no brain.
they wan to be a global education hub.
but there isnt sufficient space for their own local citizens.
and the no of public uni aint sufficient at all.
so far we only haf 3.
they rather reserve the space for the foreigners but they oso dun wan to benefit their own citizens.
and their own citizens haf to go to other foreign countries to study.
so other who arent rich enuff will haf to work so hard for the education.
the education system is so much of contradiction.
so unfair to the locals.

if only all the locals could stand up and write a referendum and go raise this important issue.
at least they can reflect on the education system.
and not juz taxing the population and depriving their own citizens of the education they deserve.
foreigners wont benefit sg too much.
it is their own citizens who will boost their economy too.
dun juz drain the local talents and depend on the foreigners.
own family ple are more reliable than the outsiders.
outsiders wont gif a damn to wad ur future will be.
the future is built by the own citizens.
outsiders can juz whack ur country and they can simply juz wipe their butts and off back to their own country.
who cares abt the problems they create.
it's ur country nt mine.

wad is this govt thinkin man...

10 May 2008 - KAWAII

2008-05-10T18:23:00.003+08:00

KAWAII-NAE!~

Babytree Cell Phone Strap
this is so so cool.
a tiny plant in a small bottle and it doesnt require lots of watering...
good for lazy ple like mi.
The Babytree can live in a capsule for 6 months.
If the baby tree grows up and needs more spacious room, it can be replant in a pod.
i wan these but it is so ex...

Marimo (Spherical Moss) With Birthstone Cell Phone Strap
A sperical moss that grows at "Akanko", Hokkaido.
It is living and can grow as long as clean water is replaced at least once a week.
Impressive~ I like the birth stone thingy...
so cool...

Living Sea Weed Strap
Micro Seaweeds which are kept in a bottle filled with clean deep-sea water...
so cute...

Luminous Star Sand from Secret Beach of Okinawa Cell Phone Strap
Natural star shaped sand from Japanese tropical islands, Okinawa!
Luminous sands emit fantastic blue light in the dark.
aaaawwww~

Kesaran Pasaran Mysterious Fluffy Thing Lucky Cell Phone Strap
In Japan, it was a legend that someone who found and caught a Kesaran Pasaran can get good luck.
Im in nid of luck, lots of them...

Disney Mickey and Minnie Mouse Love x2 Pair
so cuuuuuteeee...
so like these couple couple stuff...
nw so far only joy, liting and yiNgz nid it...
lol...

Disney Gold Shining Initial Tag Cell Phone Strap

awwww~ everything is juz so kawaii...
the japanese realli noe how to capture the gurls' hearts wif all these cute cute stuff and motivate us to buy the kawaii things even the prices are so steep.
lol...
i wanna haf all of them...
=Z

10 May 2008 - At work

2008-05-10T10:45:00.003+08:00

im slackin at work.
it was suppose to be slightly busier.
but becoz sharana is on leave today, so i was transferred to the MSP clinic for assistance.
lol...
and MSP patients r so much fewer than Rehab by alot alot more.
so far since 8.30am till nw, onli 3 patients turned up and 1 more comin at 11.30am.
lol..
and dat one more is a VIP - Mr Teo Ser Luck.
Dunno who, go wikipedia see...
lol...

aft discoverin his age, i was stunned.
he looked so young on TV, doesnt match his age at all.
he look like early 30s to mi.
hahaha...
hopefully when he comes ltr i can see actually how young he looks...
lol...

9 May - Happy B'day YK!!!

2008-05-09T09:08:00.003+08:00

diaoz...
ltr goin back to work for a few hours.
coz sharana's grandfather passed away and halena on mc.
so i nid to go back.
but pay wise, it sounded tempting.
if i return for work, haiyang (one of de HOD) will take it as i start from 8.30am.
WOW!!!...
8.30am - 1pm is alot and no brk wor...
and im leavin at 5pm.
hahaha...
complete all registration and off i go.
leavin early to go for dinner gathering with classmates =)
but im worried abt moi hair.
tied up sure cant let dwn liao.
coz will haf dat bend mark and messy look.
haiz...
vain...
tmr workin too...
sianz...

04 May 2008 - Total Disappointed to Total Ignorance

2008-05-04T12:11:00.002+08:00

she dun seems to change.
she is gttin worse.
ytd even moi milk oso take and drink.
nvm, it juz a bottle of strawberry milk.
i used to forgive her one aft another mistake she makes, but nw this big mistake she made is getting hard for mi to forgive her.
if she ever repent, i will still gif her at least another chance.
but she doesnt, all she could say was, "at least i return back to u, i could haf sell it away. if i noe, i wont return to u."
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz...
if u were mi, how will u feel???

moi conclusion:
dat guy if she doesn't wan to brk wif him soon, she will juz gt astray.
and since ah lian and ah beng wan to be tgh, we cant brk dem up mah...
they r a TOTAL PERFECT COUPLE.
in terms of character, attitude problems, the way they tok to their family and etc.
all de same...
so hopefully dey will end up sweet and nice tgh 4eva lor...
i will close moi eyes.
all i ask for is leave mi and moi things alone and i dun wan to hear their "sweet sticky" talks and their irritating loud conversation which i cant agree.

and initially moi mum noe the problem only.
but nw moi dad noe.
how he noe it, im nt sure.
maybe becoz aft i found out moi sis invaded into moi privacy, den i gt all so angry and started screamin to moi mum abt it.
so happens to moi dad is outside at de living rm and he could haf hear smth and asked moi mum abt it.
anyway, ytd at least it marked the end to de cold war wif moi dad.

i think everyone esp mi is super disappointed wif her.
tried to act as if im alright wif her, but was very sacrastic towards her.
and aft moi parents went in to the transit in de airport, i totally started to ignore dat gurl.
i noe i was bad, but honestly, im like dat.
yes, im so calculative.

i noe she is moi sis.
but had she tot dat im her sis when she done the numerous things to crush moi heart?
and she is still crushin it.
i think everyone has their own limits and it is over de limits le.
so wad kind of attitude shud i be towards her?
other than resentment, i haf nth else towards her.
guess i juz nid more time, and she has to do smth to let mi forgive her if she still treasure the sistership btn us.

anw, moi jie meis dun worry abt mi.
i noe i haf been rather cranky.
but gif mi sometime to get over it.
like u all noe, it takes mi a long long time to forget something vividly in moi mind.
moi stm dun works here.
and thanks alot gurls, for being dere when i needed u all.
u all noe de details to the whole thing.
u all were dere with mi when the "LIVE" telecast of the whole thing happened.
u all understand best why i will feel this way.
thanks for being moi listenin ears and moi advisors...
muackz...
i love u all...

02 May 2008 - bitch

2008-05-02T22:02:00.003+08:00

im really really really pissed off...
i tot for 1 day i could haf peace.
at least at work, i dun haf to think so much.
but aft viewin moi own blog, some entries were deleted.
and most importantly it wasnt deleted by mi.
no doubt, on earth dere is only 1 bitch who will do this.
nt even only moi blog was invaded, but moi msn oso was intruded.

not only moi hp was stolen by her, moi money was stolen by her, bags were randomly used by her w/o acknowledging mi, moi clothings including innerwear were taken w/o moi permission.
moi hp contacts stolen by her for her own freakin shit database for her freakin shitty job.
whatelse can she touch?!?
next time in de future when i haf bf, she come and steal too?!?
everything she juz use lah, take lah...
everything juz gif it to her lah...
ENUFF is ENUFFF!!!
she still dun understand!!!
4gt it lah...
I HAD ENUFFFFF of ALL THESE SHITTY CRAP!!
NO MORE CHANCE!!!
aft moi parents r back frm Holiday in HK, i will throw out all the fuss...

initially, tot of canceling the police report.
NW!!! NO MORE!!!
she and her BF will gt it all frm mi...

tell mi how am i goin to face dat bitch.
i dunno wad to say.
HATE HER TO THE INFINITE EXTREME!!!
but so much emotions yet no words can describe how i feel.
so fret up and freakin pek chek.
how i wish to juz leave this world for gd...

feel so betrayed by the kinship which everyone claimed to be precious.
wad so precious abt it???
IT IS ALL BULLSHIT!!!
I wont believe anymore...
trust demolished!!!
it juz leave ple's heart all broken and weepin in tears which r undeserved for...
no more hurt for mi...

心已封闭起来！

道歉也回不来！

为何我要委屈自己

28 Apr 2008 - New Hp, New No

2008-04-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

bought a new hp, sign-up a new line (to stop see dat sucker's attitude).
therefore, i haf a new no.
msn mi or msg moi old no wif ur name in it so i can recognise who u r.
currently temporarily using 2 no.
coz i scare still gt ple will msg de old no, esp moi dancers.
unable to contact dem, coz all no gone.
hopefully dey see dis and contact mi thru moi previous no.
so dun delete moi old no wor...

but i still miss moi Pink Clamshell hp, z610i alot...
up till nw still no mood.
haiz...
and im fallin sick too.
soon u wont gt to hear moi voice so quite a while.
coz nw throat super pain and voice is brkin and sorin too...
sianz...

lookin 4ward to labour day, den vesak day den 23/5...

26 Apr 2008 - Thanks moi sweetie

2008-04-26T23:29:00.004+08:00

Thanks Joyjoy for comin dwn frm east coast to bedok to eat bar chor mee...
sorry for lettin u worry abt mi since 1+pm to 5+pm.
and i think frightened u thru de 1st call when u reached mi...
kip crying thru...
thank alot for all ur comfort.
thanks Mr kenchi for lettin ur gurl to pei mi.
paiseh be u all both de big lightbulb.
hope u all really enjoyed de bar chor mee...
moi mood is slightly better.

hopefully tmr i can gt moi new hp.

no longer a gd mummy gurl le...
time to rebel...

26 Apr 2008 - Lost moi Z610i hp

2008-04-26T18:07:00.004+08:00

i lost moi hp.
discovered it dis mornin when im abt to start moi work.
den i called moi hp but no one pick up.
initially, tot dat i 4gt to bring moi hp out.
aft dat, when im abt to finish work i called home to ask moi sis to check if moi hp was at home, she couldnt find it and moi hp was switched off.
heart aches so much.
moi 1st hp which i bought with moi pay.

made a police report and disconnected moi line le.
and dat heartless old man dun wan to recontact de MIO line and he is using moi student plan.
so i so struck, cant gt a line and had to purchase de hp @ retail price which i felt it isnt worth.
so helpless w/o a hp...
and so angry too.

in a very bad mood.
coz lost moi hp, lost de pic in de hp, bye bye to de precious msgs, all moi contacts gone!
moi calendar details gone too.
haiz...
and wanted to tok to a fren, but w/o hp cant call.
even wif hse fone, no number oso cant call.
was so sad, and cant do anything.
so helpless and hopeless...
while on moi way home, i was on de verge of crying.
on de bus, couldnt control de freakin tears.
feel so stupid.
stupid for nt able to kip moi hp properly, stupid for signin up de plan for moi dad, stupid for being so dependant on moi hp, stupid for simply everything.
i sucks lah...
all de no i can rmb r moi hp no, moi used-to-be hp nos, moi hse no, moi mum's hps nos and moi grandma's no.
other than dat all cant gt into moi head.
stupid mii!!!
hate myself so much...

miss moi Z610i so much...
anw anyone who saw a hp like mine and with de IMEI: 35283601-932377-4
contact de police kkz...
i noe de chance is near to zero, but still hope to gt it back.

24 Apr 2008 - I wan to buy a NEW HP

2008-04-24T11:20:00.003+08:00

i finally made de decision.
im gonna buy Sony Ericsson K810i.
so like de HP camera.
Moreover, it is currently havin promotion at singtel and i can finally eligible to upgrade moi MIO plan liao.
SHIOK!!!
but im struck at the colour selection...
lol... hmmm...
blue or ivory???

dou, yingz, ting and joy see dis liao, help mi choose and give mi opinions...
muackz!! aiai moi sweeties...
lol...

aft buyin dis hp, moi nxt goal is PSP Slim and Lite Pink!!!
YAY!!!
Work for more money!!!
Motivation!!!
lol...

JCIA auditors comin soon...
OMG!!!
sianz...
hope today once and for all...
hopefully, ltr dey can pls take mi as transparent...
u cant see mi, i cant see u.
we dun tok and no interaction...
bye bye...

zzzz... really freak nervous...
wan act busy oso cant...
nw no patient...
GOSH!!!
C/N done some returnin...
nth to do only surfing web...
how how how?!?
faintz...

23 Apr 2008 - CGH audit

2008-04-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

CGH's JCIA Audit is becoming a mental torture for all the staffs.
all of us r suffering frm major mental block.
and suay suay dis wk de patients gt attitude problem.
*rolls eyes*
sometime feel like killin dem.

ple who go to hospital or wadeva lah...
pls spare a tot for de ple who r serving u.
try to understand how much of stress they r goin thru.
de stress for doin C/N alone can kill one person liao.
imagine doin registration, billing, makin appt and handling patients, therapists and other staffs frm other departments.
STRESS and MORE STRESS.
and wad is more is dat dere is JCIA dis wk too, so it will be EVEN MUCH MORE STRESS!!!
so whoever so happen to go to hospital and meet de PSA, spare a tot for dem.
nt say dey r rude to u, sometime wad dey r goin thru, u cant imagine.
so dun be a spoiled brat by making things even more difficult for her.
dun think u r de one payin de medical bills den we r de one shud suffer all de demands frm u.
we dun owe u anything and u dun pay us.
ur bill only pay contribute or our salary by dat 1% in de hr, so stop think u r more superior.
all of us r equivalent!!!

geez...
de more i say, de more agitated i go.
sianz...
*yawns*
freakin tired...
nitez...

anw, i will be appearin offline when im on msn.
coz no mood to tok.
anything urgent den sms mi or send mi offline msg bah.
will gt back asap.

22 Apr 2008 - I miss moi schoolin days!!!

2008-04-22T22:46:00.004+08:00

back to moi blog to blabber all moi upsets and complains...
oh blogger! u r such a wonderful listener...
although u dun gif moi comments or advices, but u at least let moi pour out moi sorrows.
so dun trick mi by appearin dat notice "Could not contact Blogger.com. Saving and publishing may fail. Retrying..."
hmmm...

honestly, i think im nt ready nor used to the hectic workin life.
perhaps it is due to dis job which i dislike alot.
partly becoz of de jobscope, but mainly due to the workin environment.
i really hate dat backstabbing and office politics.
but im still motivatin myself to stay on till de last day come.
tmr will offically mark one more mth to moi last day.
and i haf 3 big motivations to kip mi goin till 23 May 2008 (6.30pm-7pm if im doin C/N, but 5.30pm if im doin reg or 6pm for billing) comes.
but i quite like de other fellow PSAs in the specialist clinics esp A and B.
dey r really nice, maybe becoz more chinese dere bah - much friendlier.
im nt stereotyping or wad so eva.
but really in some aspects like communication, workin wif the common race will be better.

another thing in this job is dat the ple (colleagues, patients, hawkers and etc) kip mistaking mi AS A MALAY...
zzzzzzzz...
i noe im dark but nt to de extent to be as dark as the malays bah...
and when dey speak melayu, u can see dat numerous question marks appearing on top of moi head.
alamak, faintz...

haiz...
i really miss moi schooling days...
so sianz...
i really hope and prayin hard to get into uni.
schooling days r fun and i plan to move out to stay in hostel too...
=)
de only option and excuse for mi to move out of dat pig sty.

*sighs*
tmr work work work again...
hopefully it will be like today, lil ple comin in for therapy and i can surf web and i become less stress too.
and JCIA auditors faster audit finish rehab so we dun haf to panick everyday.
but when dey come audit, dey can skip de counter or at least skip de temp staffs.
bad new frm the seniors is they r aiming at young staffs like us.
=.="

gd luck to mi...
faintz n nitez...

21 Apr 2008 - Wad in the world is the SACian thinkin?

2008-04-21T20:12:00.002+08:00

Wad in the world r the SACians think?
more and more SACians r goin those star star competitions.
1st one was moi batch de tricia in de Miss SG Universe, nxt was moi dance de Teri in CSS2.
and can u imagine, nw, it is dat loudspeaker - Germaine dat drama mama who joined de current channel u's mon modeling competition.
gosh!~
i couldnt believe moi own eyes.
zzzzzz... faintz...
*shake head shake head*
totally astonished...
SACians who know her shud understand moi amazement...

20 Apr 2008 - Work Again

2008-04-20T21:40:00.003+08:00

tmr is another long wk of work, whereby i work frm mon to sat.
dis coming wk is an impt wk for cgh as dey r having their JCIA, re-accrediation.
so it gonna be a busy and tense wk, and hopefully i wont tio de audit qns or do anything wrong.
one work to describe: SIANZ!!!
hopefully, it will be a peaceful week...

whole of dis wkend, i been spendin my time watchin show.
finish whole of hana yori dango season 2 and nw finishing Yukan Club.
Yukan Club gt He Jun Xiang...
lol...
nice =)
more manga live actions!!!
Banzai to JDramas!!!

What is ur Korean Name?

2008-04-18T09:01:00.003+08:00

What is ur Korean Name?

Surname : Korean surname is the last number in your year of birth
0: Park
1: Kim
2: Shin
3: Choi
4: Song
5: Kang
6: Han
7: Lee
8: Sung
9: Jung

Middle name : is your month of birth
1: Yong
2: Ji
3: Je
4: Hye
5: Dong
6: Sang
7: Ha
8: Hyo
9: Soo
10: Eun
11: Hyun
12: Rae

Name : is your date of birth
1: Hwa
2: Woo
3: Joon
4: Hee
5: Kyo
6: Kyung
7: Wook
8: Jin
9: Jae
10: Hoon
11: Ra
12: Bin
13: Sun
14: Ri
15: Soo
16: Rim
17: Ah
18: Ae
19: Neul
20: Mun
21: In
22: Mi
23: Ki
24: Sang
25: Byung
26: Seok
27: Gun
28: Yoo
29: Sup
30: Won
31: Sub

My Korean Name is Sung Eun Mun (Hanja: 宋恩雯) (Hangul: 송은문)
lol... songs weird...

18 Apr 2008 - Insomnia

2008-04-18T08:25:00.001+08:00

nw it is hardly 8.30am and i haf already woke up.
woke up wif a huge headache.
im still very very fatigue but simply cant gt back to slp.
the whole nite i haf been waking up den back to slp den again waking up and back to slp again.
the cycle continues several times, till nw i barely could get back to slp.
and i realised it din juz happened last nite but almost every nite.
it becomin a habit.
i think my body alarm had also adjusted to the early slp at 11pm and wakin up before 7.30am.
sianz...
im very tired lah...
*yawns*

11 Apr 2008 - 安琪的突发奇想

2008-04-11T22:25:00.002+08:00

在过于累的疲惫的当中，心情也在改变。
最近的心情有如近几天的天气一般的乌云密布 — 暗沉与低落。
好几天都在想东又想西，胡思乱想。
一直都在自我反省当中。
勾起好多让自己悔不当初的记忆。
好想让时间倒流，回到我可以从新选择一次，那我也许就不会如此的痛苦了吧！
但事情都已经发生了，那也只能恨自己，默默地接受。

现在好想好想出国散散心，好好的放松心情。
但是可恶的爸妈，要把我这可怜兮兮的小女子和那王八蛋丢在新加坡，一起到台湾玩。
我因为工作的关系，不能请假，所以不能一起同行。
心情更阴沉许多。
多到自葛不知不觉的在床上画圈圈。

嘿~ 又开始自闭了~
失眠的好几晚了。
话越来越少，想的却越来越多。
做人好累好累好累好累喔！

有时候想放弃了但心还是痛的~

09 Apr 2008 - work work work

2008-04-09T10:20:00.001+08:00

im at work...
slackin alil..
praise de lord, hopefully ltr it will be as gd as nw...
=)